I didn't mean to mess things up

Date : 7th September 2007
Time : 6.17pm
Listening to : I believe - My Sassy Girl OST
Where : Room - Malacca

These few days, I was felt rather melancholic. It's like most of the songs that I was listening to drew me back to one particular person. It's not that I listened to it on purpose. It was just on the playlist. Quite sad. Cos' in many ways, I think I've ruined a friendship. Even 2 days ago, I was dreaming about him and another good friend. He was mad at me and I woke up feeling so like this.... -.-!!! T.T...

And so I think he's going MIA for a while. I felt so shitty about it for days man. Can't listen to I Believe, David Tao or freakin Maroon 5 for goodness sake. Dunnoe why lah! Don't ask. I know I didn't handle the situation well a couple years back. And I know we didn't exactly had any problem after that even though things were ugly. But I am seriously sorry I am just not normal when it comes to things like that ok? It's not that I could help it. I also will not in any way try to explain why things went that way. I am just sorry that I am plain weird having this problem. I am just having a messed up brain and I am best being right where I am. Don't even tell me I don't have to say sorry because you know I should. And this is not even a stupid excuse made up a few years back. Know me by the way I lived my life. It's just plain weird if you don't speak to me anymore. I know we don't meet often but sial... if you ever, ever go real awkward meeting me or something, I think Andrew gonna have to listen to me rant about it endlessly. Aiyoooo....I dunnoe what to say d. If I don't blog bout this, I don't think I can leave for the new semester with a start man. I don't know what's the big deal lah but it just is lah ok?!

-Wong Chen Li-