Do you know...?

...that I have so many things to say to you but I just can't get it off my chest.

...that I actually felt jealous and yet I said things that totally contradict with what I feel.

...that I felt disgusted with myself for being in this situation.

-chen-
[6.05PM]

let's go

Date : 17th August 2009
Time : 10.46PM
Listening to : I live my life for you - Bon Jovi
Where : Room - MC

Okay chen, you heard him. Let's go. Don't loiter around. You're obviously not thinking right. Goodnight people.

-chen-
[10.56PM]

After all

Date : 15th August 2009
Time : 9.41AM
Listening to : After All - Collective Soul
Where : Room - MC

Ah...Keeping myself super busy so I won't think about things that will evoke unnecessary emotion.

We steal to lose every colour
From the sky
Then crawl as a child
While the shadows burn our eyes

We know there's no longer shine
On this burned out rainbow

Lately it seems we've been chasing
What times resolved
Maybe something means nothing here
After all

Whispers are now screams
This conclusion never ends
My pride with your kiss
Even angels cant defend

We know were running head on
Into our confusion

Still we hide safe behind these crumbled walls
Cause we know there's nothing here after all

After All - Collective Soul

God, will I remain like this forever? Please let me know. sigh... I am tired to be in this never ending circle. Don't think I can even cry anymore.


Going coming
Thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know

-chen-
[10.01AM]

One day I'm going to crash like a trainwreck.

Date: 6th August 2009
Time : 6.15AM
Listening to : Bro's snoring
Where : Room - MC

6AM weiiii....... Been so so sooooooooo busy for the past few weeks. I didn't even have the time to rest. I was at William's printing shop everyday from 10AM to 8PM for the whole last week. And I hardly even get o sleep for the past couple of days. I am like a train that's going to crash one day if i continue working like this. I honestly feel that I might just break laaaa...... I cannot work like this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But I don't have a choice and I REALLY NEED TO SLEEP!!!!!!!!!

I must be the worst president alive.

-chen-