Feel so unproductive!!!

Date : 31st July 2008
Time : 2.35PM
Listening to : Amazing Grace (My chains are gone)
Where : Room - MC

Holidays almost 2 weeks already and you now what? SO UNPRODUCTIVE laaaaaaaaaaaaa~! I feel so wasted and like nothing to do. It's either I work on Casually killed or watch drama. Like so many free time at hand and I dunnoe how to handle lae. But I actually have a lot of things to do. o.0 Stupid drama is such an addiction. Stoopid dinosaur. Hng! Oh btw... It's Amir's birthday today. Will celebrate with him later.

Then I did some paper craft. Not the banyak-banyak cutting one la. Just something I will put in my upcoming website. Hope to get it done asap. Introducing one of the characters, Blue Guni.


Coming back this weekend if my mom comes KL. See ya peepz then!

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pre-break updates

Date : 29th July 2008
Time : 4.09PM
Listening to : I Can't Tell You Why - Eagles (Timothy B. Schmit)
Where : Room - MC

Just came back from Teluk Intan. Driving in that small town ah... It's like playing buzzer cum shmup game lae. So many motorcyclists. And have to elak like crazy. Sweat. Well, anyway, ate like super alot during my 2 days stay there.

I haven't been updating I know. So this could be quite long.

We had our Web Design 2 final presentation 2 weeks ago. I've never felt that nervous before when it comes to presentation. But I think I am pretty good at switching roles/emotions/expressions or whatever you wanna call it that in the end I managed to present quite confidently. Sometimes I think I was born a good actress la. Hahaha. We had a guest from the industry and also senior lecturer (Wai Kong) sitting in for the presentation. Sweat kao. After the presentation, Tanyus, Wahyu and I helped Judy and also Chin Wen with their AS3 scripting. Stress like gila. And then Tanyus left for homw and Wahyu left for the interview. Left me and Chris. In the end we had to call hazmer cos I really couldn't figure out what was wrong with the script. Manatau it was the images. T_T. Then afte helping them out, Chris, Wahyu and I sat at the staircase there and we chatted bout game and all la. We were actually waiting for our Web Design lecturers to ho habis kerja cos our class was going to have dinner with them.

The dinner rite...hahaha... they (Jo, Chong, Eugene and Wai Khong) brought us to this medan selera place... And it was... scary. The way the vendors tried to tarik pelanggan and all. And Wai Khong was laughing and he asked me, "Culture shock lae??"... I think they tengah membalas dendam cos our class were so noisy. So they brought us there to experience what was it like to be bombarded with so many questions and noises at the same time. Really very confusing ok??? Lol..But anyway... we really had a lot of fun dining with them la. And I think we chaned topic to fast and too randomly that they couldn't really catch up. Jo said our energy level are different from theirs. Lol...

Then on Saturday, 6 of us, (Wahyu, Chris, Tan, Sel, Dee and I) met in Italiannes. We planned to celebrate Wahyu's and Dee's birthdays earlier cos Wahyu was going back to Indon edi. Intended to watch hellboy also actually but TGV screwed up the time and so things got messed up. Tan was quite upset la cos she bought the tickets already. So I had to help her sell off the tickets 20 minutes before the movie starts. It made me realize... I am pretty good at selling tickets. o.0 But it was a great day nevertheless. Taking pictures was quite a task also. Lol. Then we went back to Video Lab (Our "home") and discussed about our websites designerds.de... It was fun discussing until we came to a roadblock... Art direction. We have very differents styles and to combine them together would be a terribly challenging task. So we drew lots and Dee gets to design our very first layout. Weeee~!

[The happiest picture ever]

After the discussion, I left for Sunway Pyramid cos Sathom was going to belanja Zaf, Zheng, my bro and I. Belanja movie tickets.... Batman. And I was supposed to belanja them dinner. Well, it was a good movie but I think Joker totally stole the whole show NOT because Heath Ledger was in it. It'a a fact. And don't be mistaken that the whole show was popular just because he died and it became a tribute. He was just plain good in his role. And I wished they put in more actions.

Video class was pushed forward to Monday and it was ok. After the class, Tan, Sel, Chris and I went to watch Hellboy. Ok.. I know many might just tembak me kao for this review but I'm going ahead with it anyway. Yes, the CG was good. The characters design were fantastic. But the storyline was crap. I am the sort of person who goes to a movie to find out bout the storyline. Effects, costume and all comes second. So if the storyline is weak, it doesn't appeal to me at all. But really, if you like good effects, CG and all, Hellboy is recommended. I enjoyed the graphics part but I got annoyed when I think of the storyline. It's pretty weak la har. Del Toro is good. Pan's Labyrinth was fantastic. End of review.

Then I spent the rest of the week doing Hazmer's work. Then went for the Multimedia Starlites 2008 event in TOA on Wednesday. It was good. At the end of the session, we took photos with our lecturers. And Kenny was so funny la. We disturbed him bout the blog entry and all. It was so entertaining just to disturb him. And Tan, Sel and I had such a laugh talking with Chong. Then the conversation with Hazmer, May Yin and Jo was... I tell you...super hilarious. In Japanese. I understood nuts bout it. o.0 Then Jo had to halau our class out cos we were plain too noisy d and the gallery going to tutup d. After that I discussed with hazmer about the meeting after his class. Supposed to meet at Old Town with Sel and Tan for dinner. So while waiting for him, Sel, Tan and I watched Red Cliff. Fantastic show. Seriously, go watch it. After the movie, we met Hazmer for dinner. He told us about his new game and then talked about Casually Killed and yeah... kematian ku. Nola...Just kidding.

Then I spent Thurs and Fri doing GY's wedding card. Danny teman-ed me go William's place to print. then he balik. I stayed back to help Michelle and William out with their wedding cards work. I was actually waiting for Geng Yi's reply on whether he could meet up for the card thing. He couldn't make it. So I chatted with William and Michelle la and blablabla. Then they sent me home.

Saturday I met up with Hooi Siang. Waaaaaaaaaaaaa~! So long d since I last met up with him. 2 years plus. Put on weight d. We had quite a time catching up on our friends' news and all. Then we watched Hancock. Many people told me it sucks. I actually like it... like quite a lot. Quite funny. Although I must say the front pat wasn't impressive cos the way he flew was just way too fake, but I would say it was quite an entertaining movie.

Then I came back home at around 4PM and started on work again. Slept at around 4 AM but hsemate was pretty noisy dunnoe why. The next day my bro followed me to church. Then I came back and had lunch with Zheng. Then my parents came and fetched my bro and I to Teluk Intan. Fuh...

Teluk Intan was great. The food very the nice and my family very entertaining and I super love them. Ok... Banyaknyer benda I updated in just one post. K...penat... I wanna go do my work liao. Oh wait... I just found out that day that my cousin got admitted to the hospital. He had Dengue fever. I hate it man. Andrew had it once and I know how terrible it was la. Too bad I wasn't back in Malacca. Hope he recovers soon.

K... that's all! ta!

When you're down to nothing, God is up to something

Date : 26th July 2008
Time : 9.22PM
Listening to : Nothing
Where : Wen's room

Well... my bro emailed me this. Thought it'll be nice to share.

When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.'

She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: 'How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?'

The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.'

Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?'

The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.'

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through hi s thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair ?' the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.

The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will he lp some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom.' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.'

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending m ost of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight wh en Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said :

'Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You' . I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't al lowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

Btw... I wished you've chosen not to call me. You made me think too much.

And yeah... I met Hooi Siang today. Update later.

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Longer tunnel...

Date : 22nd July 2008
Time : 10.10PM
Listening to : Prodigal - One Republic
Where : Wen's Room - MC

Sigh~! I hate end of the term. It's a termly drill. I know. But I don't think anyone would be able to understand. I wish for someone who would not judge me. I have so many things to say but so little words to convey them. This is way too public to even say anything.

I was so bold to even tell her the truth but I guess she was with me for these 2 years. And yet, there's nothing much she could say to make me feel any better. And nothing I could say that would make her feel better for her case. Every end of the term, things would happen. We each have our own set of worries although not related. I even boldly told my bro my thoughts and he agreed with me to a certain extent. It's totally disastrous because he rarely gives his opinion in this matter. And it's bad cos' I DO know what I want.

I don't want to know. And yet I think I know. T_T That's the problem.... I don't want to know and yet I think I know. An assumption? Maybe. Still, I seriously don't want to know. Aih...

It's not exactly bothering me because it's not new. And I know the drill. I am just looking for a light at the end of the tunnel.

But today... I only see a longer tunnel.

And it's dark.

AKU TAK TAKUT OK!??!!?!?!?

Ahem... By the way. I am in love with Dang O again~! I will be running out of blood if I keep on having nosebleed for him. I mean seriously... Oh noessss....

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[10.26PM]

Malacca Trip with MM0681

Date : 4th July 2008
Time : 11.27AM
Listening to : You're in love - Wilson Philips
Where : Guest room - Uncle Gary's house

Wah...been ages since I last updated. No photos this time btw. Anyway, last week, my whole class (minus Sam) took a trip down to Malacca. And my whole class plus our video equipment yang amat banyak sekali could fit into my uncle's Toyota Unser comfortably. Yes, my class very the small. 7 ppl in total traveled back to Malacca. It was on Thursday and we made a detour to Muzium Negara for Dee's group video project. Then picked Sel up from KL Sentral. After that, we made a stop at a KFC outlet and have our lunch + dinner... Quite hyper la. And it was really fun to be able to travel together as a class. And during makan, we korek a bit info from Wahyu pasal Lona. Uhuhuhu... Bukannyer banyak sangat...

Then we started the journey back. Banyak punya hyper la those who sat behind. Chris and I sat at the front. Tan, Sel and Wahyu sat behind us. Then in the 3rd row was Dee and Joanne. Cakap cakap cakap cakap. Ketawa ketawa ketawa. Maybe I penat kot. Diam sikit that day. Or maybe I was just thinking about the videoshoot for the next day. And I bet Hazmer was sneezing like crazy that day cos Tan and Sel replaced the word monyong with his name. Hahaha...

Anyway, we reached home I dunnoe what time la. But kesian Wahyu and Dee cos my hse got dog rite. SO everytime have to tangkap the dog first onli they can masuk. And Jackie stole Wahyu's socks samo. Alamak... And Jackie ta layan Sel. Hahaha! Aiyo... SO kesian Sel... I started my work for Hazmer's game See...I so good ok?!?!?!?!) And that night around 10PM, we did some briefing for the next day. Chris, Wahyu and Joanne are my group members. The rest came along to help us out. And so funy lah this Sel. Ada-ada saja dia ni. Went red after seeing my 14 year old bro pasal we disturbed her with him. Huahauahauahauaua!!! Lawak lawak... After briefing, I drove Tan, Sel, Wahyu and Joanne to get supper. The burger stall that sells fantastic burger tutup-ing by then. So we went around to find another one. And we found one. Joanne and Wahyu went down to order. So I rolled down my window to listen la... SO lawak I tell you....

Jo : Burger ayam empat... burger lembu satu
Burgerman : *repeat her order wrongly*
Jo : Ayam empat...Lembu satu....
Those in the cars : HAHAHAHAAHA!
*Jo and Wahyu turned to loon*

Me : Daging lah! Lembu! Boleh habis ker??
Jo, Wahyu, burgerman: *Laughs*

Aduhai... Lawak man... Lembu.. Then they got into the car and before we drove off I told the guys we will be back to get the burger. Then Jo went to get some drinks at the mamak. Wahyu pulak went to get fries. The reason why only Jo and Wahyu went out to get stuff was because the rest of us were in our Pajamas liao. Sel paling funny one. She was in her cartoony mia PJs and she wore her gold shoes out. Mak jaaang......... So funny....

Ater we reached home, we sat down to eat. then I balik bilik buat itu characters again. Sleeping arrangement was the girls will sleep in my room. Wahyu took the TV room. Can watch football. So happie defler eh? Lucky my mom just renovated my room so got space to put all those mattresses. When the girls were upstairs, Dee pulak naik gila. She molest my bro's half-blind dino~! Apa ini. Really siao you know this fella. Sekejap dino jadi hip hop la...sekejap off shoulder baju la... =.=~! Gila... When everyone in my room fell asleep, I went down to check on Wahyu. Adakah patut he watched "Foster's home for imaginary friends" without calling us and ketawa sorang diri? X_X Anyway, I went to sleep at around 3.45AM. Sel ni kan... Bila tidor... Haha... macam cacing.

The next day, we got ready for our shooting. Wahyu ni kan. Nak panggil bangun was like asking an elephant to golek uphill. =.= Check Tanyus' blog for more info. Anyway, videoshoot went well la. Very interesting. We were shooting a documentary on this little TeoChew Porridge shop in Kampung Pantai. Very very very tiring I tell you. Really tiring. I can't exactly do much as a director pasal I have 2 cameramen kan and sammo I cannot see what they were shooting and the angles and all but thank God both Chris and Wahyu are really good photographers la. Most of the time I will be with Wahyu cos he was the main cameraman. Really penat man. Jo and I were the one who did the walking and also observing for details cos Wahyu and Chris needed to be on set all the time.

After the shoot, we went for a coffee break while waiting for the closing time. At around 3.30 we went back to the set. Chris and the rest went to do the establishing shot. Jo and I waited in the shop for the closing time. Will shoot the closing and cleaning up time. There we met this very funny uncle la. So very lawak cos he could speak a lot of languages. Then Chris they all balik just in time to shoot the tutup kedai shot. I squatted until wanna die in the hot sun shooting the closing. =.=

Then we balik my place to wash up. Tan and I kantoi-ed even before that while waiting for the rest to mandi. When I woke up, I was so blur I asked my grandma to walk to pasar malam herself. o.0" Then when I was bathing, I came to my senses and I thought back.. "What the heck??? Call grandma walk to PM herself??" So after my bath I went down and asked Sel what happened just now.. And she told me lah.. And she went, "Har? You so blur?"... I dunnoe la... when my grandma balik, I said sorry la and she laughed. =.o" After everyone mandi and all, we ate the nasi lemak bought by my mom. Then we went off to Pasar Malam. Ate so many things. Hoho~! Gembira~!

Then balik rumah semua buat kerja rumah except for me. I was really tired macam sial I kantoi-ed early. And the rest thought Jo nampak hantu cos I opened the tv room door and told her to charge the cameras la. Then closed back and went to sleep on the sofa in the dark. Then one of them asked her who she was talking to. So Jo said Chen la. Then they asked where and Jo said the tv room. Tan came in and asked, "Chen..." but she didn't see me la. And I malas nak jawab kan. Then she closed the door and she said, "Don't have!" And Jo went, "Got la.."... And then dunnoe what happened outside la. But then Jo came in again and she checked she saw me. Hahaha... Apala...

The next day shoot was easier la. Chris, Jo and Dee went to the market to wait for the uncle so she could shoot him doing the marketing. For the rest ofus, I drove them to the shop and we talked to the auntie and off we went for breakfast at the baba nyonya museum cafe there. So relaxing. When Chris they all joined us, we went off home after breakfast and we needed to be back at the shop by 3PM. We went back home and Chris + Wahyu rested downstairs while the rest of us were in my room crapping and laughing bout so many things lah. Aduhai... Sel pulak kaco kaco my bro. Hoho~! Then suddenly all fell asleep. =.= So I did my Photography. Then Chris came up and we prepared to go for lunch. Ate chicken rice ball. Sedap. Hehe... Then we went back to the teochew shop and set up all the equipment for the interview. It all went well la but the batt made the audio bad. Aih...Nemind... Got back up.

After we wrapped up the whole production, we thanked the owner and everyone and set off to Calanthe for coffee break again. We were so hyper then. Aiyo... SO much fun. Then we went to A Famosa cos Sel wanna take a look. Then off we went back to my place to pack things up and cabut. Stopped at Ayer Keroh's McD. Ate there and balik KL. Along the way, o and I did the coti thing for the tapes. Sent her back first then Tan and Sel. Lepas tu left me, Wahyu, Dee and Chris. So funny la cos got one very the funny incident while we changed seats. Hoho...

Dropped Wahyu and then Dee. Then Chris sent me back to my uncle's place to change car. I spent Sat and Sun night here. All in all, everything was really fun and nice.

kla..gtg... Update more next time!

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