I am mad...

Date : 24th January 2007
Time : 11.40PM
Listening to : Nothing
Where : Living hall - Mentari Court

You know... I am really tired of feeling so incompetence this term. I dunno why but i had such idea blockage i think i will flunk my subjects. And lacking of sleep is definately one issue d. I didn't sleep last night. I am super duper d duper tired. I went for figure class trying to convinced myself into believing i slept 6 hours when i only had half an hour sleep. I am definately going mad. After figure class, i had my History class with Hooi Ciat. Found out that my group got Cubism as assignment which menat we'll be starting our assignment VERY soon and which brought about the dreadful thought of sleepless nights.... earlier than i thought i would have to endure. Last term was sleepless only on days before figure class and end of term but this term... aih... I came home and slept 2 hours and woke up thinking i was late for class but i as actually 15 minutes away from rushing to meet Uncle Kevin for the Easter Day musical drama brainstorm with the rest of the church members. I was deeply in fatigue. But i was glad to be a ble to have a decent dinner. Andrew's house is in SS19 and it is very very big with 7 luxurious cars. Sheesh... Nevermind... I was too tired to notice anyway.

And thank God for Mel's internet account or i will really flunk my Design II this term. Joon called just now and i told him i didn't sleep and he didn't believe me... Come on man... My course.... i really mean it when i said i didn;t sleep. I dunno la... I am super duper tired.

Thinking about my mom now... I hope she's fine. She fainted in the bathroom last week and i went back to see her. Gosh... I really hope she'll recover asap. And crazily enough, my calligraphy class lecturers are mad to think we have the time to go around KL to get 40 additional pictures for alphabets looking stuff and she wants outdoor pictures. If i can squeeze even 3 hours of going out i am considered lucky d. I wonder... really, if they remember that we have 7 freakin classes each week and only 24 hours each day and 3 assignments for Design II and 8 figures each week not to mention our schedule so jam packed even without our Workshop starting yet. And drama! wah.... That's the only one we can have fun. I am going mad... I am going mad....

Ppl... pray for me and my bro and my friends please... Thank You....

Sigh...

Date : 15th January 2007
Time : 6.35PM
Listening to : Spirit of Love - theme song
Where : Zheng's place

Sigh... Guess what... Gary granted me permission to attend morning class. I was happy at first and then i realized that... Sigh... I don't really wanna leave actually. And i felt bad cos i think God was trying to tell me, "You want this? I give you this. Don't regret." Sigh... I am already regretting d one lo. I dunno.... Sigh... God, please don't be mad.

Last week, in our drama class, Gary asked us to look empty. Well, Amir cracked me up and we can't do the empty look. Eventually we did of course. Then, he gave us the homework to study fearful expression on movies. Alaaa... Amir, Zafri, Zheng and I even tried practicing last saturday but all ended up in failures. I got really concerned of not being able to do it. It's not just any fearful expression you know. It's Level 10 one. Adoih... Pengsan. I saw almost everyone did so well today before it was my turn. I really thought i can't pull it through. I was praying that God will help me through this and i did it. Wow... An A. I was surprised myself. Then, we had to do over the top "Happiness" acting. Liao la... Sathom did something crazy and i decided to go next in response to his acting. Gila man. Then the third part. Laughing histerically. I can't do it. I tried 3 times and it was so hard. I know you guys will be like, "What... You can't do it? Don't bluff!". No... really, i can't o it. I can't fake laughter one lor... Sigh.. Grateful to get an A-.

Now doing the summary for the History and origins of Calligraphy and letterings. Since i started class, I frequented library more often than i've been added together last term. I grouped with Amir, Zheng, Sathom, Zafri and Hai Lam in Design II this term. Somehow glad that i get to work with other people. Tomorrow going to the National Museum for research on our initial design.

Kla... for request here... Guys, drop me a message/comment to describe me and what color will i be and why? Thanks yea. Please help. For my additional research on Design II projects.

-chen-
[6.52PM]

Back to Toa!

Date : 10^th January 2007
Time : 10.41PM
Listening to : Leslie Cheung – The wind continues to blow
Where : KL – Room

Got my result on Monday. Went to check on Saturday actually, with Juliana. She came over since Friday and went back on Sunday. The result weren’t displayed… Ok… There were results displayed but I think I missed my class one. So I went home still thinking if I can get an A or A- for my Finished Art. Met with Zheng on Saturday and met up with Mel and friend for lunch in Meng Tien. Then Zheng, Juliana and I went to Sunway Pyramid, intended to atch a movie but darn expensive so we ditched the idea. On the way in to SP, we passed by Renoma shop and Zheng spotted Nicky. And we spotted him a couple of times on the phone too. Then we cabut balik rumah and I slept while Ju watched a couple of DVDs. Then at night Mel, Ju and I went to SP to meet up with Mel’s god-brother, Martin. Gahaha… Darn funny. Had a really funny conversation and many many laughs especially when we were accompanying Mel to the California Fitness sign up. We totally cracked the staff there up. Aidil, one of the senior executives there said we were the funniest ppl he’s seen that day. We each took the BMI test for fun. Cis… Only Martin is healthy. Ju and I underweight. Pig man.

Neway, Monday… Yea… Class starte. Drama class. You know how very desperate I am to attend the morning class. PPl just don’t understand. It’s not the time that matters. Nevermind. I thought I will die in drama class. Gary was so super cheeky. Sigh. Exemption to my lecturer, Gary alone. Other than that, one more joke or whatever crap from other people on that particular issue, I am going to fume. Yeah, back to my result. I went to check and I saw Amir there. It was so high up I almost break my neck trying to see my result. I saw in a glance and first I saw Design I and I got A-. Then figure I got a B then I read Fine art and I say a B. I thought it was Finished Art and I kinda knocked my head on the wall. But since I told God I will be thankful I didn’t wanna complain. Then I read again and I realized it was actually Fine art & drawing I. Phew… Overally, this is my result la.

Design I : A- (Cis…. Illustrator pulled me down)

Figure : B

Drawing : B

Finished Art : A

Comm Skill : A

History of Art & Design : A

Malaysian Studies : A-

Darn gateful to God for His graciousness. Never thought my HAD will get A. My final project of HAD, My Mona Lisa actually got a 16/20. And I can’t believe I actually got 14/15 for my figure test wei. Pengsan. Seriously blessing from God. If not, I won’t be able to get the result that I have now.

Okay, socially, doing fine. Happy to be where I am. Go class, come back. Didn’t lepak around like I did last sem.

-chen-

[1.01PM]

Happy New Year!

Date : 3^rd January 2007
Time : 5.06PM
Listening to : Have you seen her – M.C Hammer
Where : Room

Nampaknyer, I’m still in Malacca. Ju left this morning at 5 AM. She still haven’t found her bible. Adoih. I really wonder where it is. Neway, I just finished packing. Not exactly finished la. Sigh. I haven’t done any figure yet. Really tak tau mati. Aih… What the heck. Later la.

Last Sunday, we gathered at Uncle Ivan’s place. What a day man. So much laughs and crazy talks. Two hours before new year, we gathered in the house and we had some sharing. Well, I guess what hit me most came from Ah Hwei and Geng Yi. After that, GY gave us each a gift. Thanks a lot. Then Livia shown me her room. Fuh… So ceria one. Haha. She is really one adorable fella la. And after that she gave Ju, Yen and I a glow-in-the-dark band each. Then all of us went outside and waited for the fireworks. We practiced some crazy cheering before it struck twelve. Wahaha…. Darn funny wei. It was tiring la that night. I am sure all of us had fun.

Oh yea, I forgot. I highlighted my hair red. Not that outrageous la. Haiya. Although I was shocked myself, I think it’s okay kua. On Monday, I went lunch with GY. Ju and Yen couldn’t make it. I drove. Wahaha… I dunno about GY but dunno how many times almost make a wrong turn. Andrew called me this morning. He just got back from New York. Alaaaa…. I was still sleeping. Sorry la Andrew. I know I sounded sleepy. Hehe.

Starting a new term soon. Aih… These few weeks, I was confined to the upper floor of my house due to the renovation of my front porch and kitchen. So dusty. It’s good to get away from all those drillings and noise. But still, I kinda dread going back KL. Sigh. It’s way too busy for me and I don’t like the jams and I really don’t like the absence of my family and MGC people. Now that Ju is in KL, and Hema is going in February, Yen will be the one left in Malacca. Ai… Bahagia betul. I hope I’ll be able to come back more often this term. But I know one la… TOA…. Sleep also no time, wanna travel back. Cheh….. Yen, we’ll be back as often as we could ok? Good luck in your exam!

Kla… Wanna cabut d. Ta!

-chen-

[5.21PM]

One last one before i leave

Date : 29^th December 2006
Time : 3.39AM
Listening to : Should I stay – Dreamz FM
Where : Room

So long since I last blogged. Many things happened. Malacca was flooded. Ju, Auntie Jen and Uncle Tony’s place were flooded real bad. Mine was spared this time. Praise God. It was terrible. My family and I got away from this terrible weather and flood and ended up going Genting. I was coughing since last week. Okay, since I came back from camp. Details bout it later. Neway, we made a detour to my apartment up in KL before heading for GH. It was kinda like nice to be back. But heck, as much as I miss my course, I do not miss KL at all. Last term was like some black dot in history and I am super glad to wrap it all up and throw it away. I don’t need reminder of last term. When the new term starts, believe me, I need not slack about in Sunway Pyramid anymore. Get me scorched and burned under the sun but never will I waste my time like some stupid fool that thinks social ring is important. I get past that and I can have that in Malacca. I know I won’t be what people want me to be so what the heck, I will be a nerd like what my bro said I would be if I make a 180 degree turn. Probably I don’t make any sense here. Never mind. I just hate leaving Malacca. Wish that TOA is in Malacca sometimes but thinking about it, no… I don’t want it to be here. I cannot imagine what will happen to mix everyone up like that. It’s more than what I can handle. I can’t stand my church mates calling me Chen. I am not that a stranger to you guys to suddenly call me Chen right? You knew me as Chen Li then let me remain as Chen Li in your life. Don’t reduce me to Chen. Right, it’s just a name but for my sake, let me be Chen Li okay? It’s like me being away from home and having someone to call me that says, “Hey, Chen Li! How are you?” instead of the usual, “Chen, how’s your pop-up project?” thing. I dunno how to explain but you know, people in Malacca, make me feel at home okay? Aih… I am freakin crazy. Just now went mamak with Ju and Yen. So sad. Ju and I leaving on the 3^rd and I really hate to leave.

After GH, we went back to my grandma’s place in Teluk Intan. Great food and company. Missed Christmas celebration but my family made it super memorable. They bought me a cross which cost 1300 bucks but thank God for the 50% discount. I really appreciate it. Thank you for acknowledging my status as a Christian so seriously. It meant so much. Hong Sheng asked to join him and friends at a party but I didn’t go cos I was coughing so much I lost the mood. He is the only other Christian beside me in our family. Neway, Andrew is in New York when we sms-ed each other. He was going to the Empire State building which reminded me of Sleepless in Seattle. Hehe. He called earlier one day before he left for NY. Darn glad to hear from him. Gosh, never knew that I will be so glad to receive calls from UNKNOWN caller. Cheh. This unknown caller is one of my most known friend. Have fun Andrew.

Camp was great. I dunno about others but I knew God spoke to me through Uncle Doraysamy. Sessions with him and the youth speaker were fruitful for me. Yen said I always make sense when I elaborated on Bible verses. Hmmm… Maybe. Neway, on my last day there, after morning devotion, Aaron and I had a chat before breakfast and as we walked down, before we parted, he said, “I always ask the youths, how much you are burning for the Lord?” He didn’t know but he stopped my heart for a second. I skipped my breakfast that day. I took a cup of tea and walked out to the hill side and I talked to God. He answered. I knew He was listening. The wind told me. You guys won’t understand. If you knew our conversation, you will know. I know I can go through next year shining for Him if I want to. I want to. I just need to overcome the obstacle of dislike of something first. I will. Jesus, you loved the unlovely and so can I if I yield your strength. Teach me. I want to follow. Take away my spiritual stubbornness. Hold my tongue and hands from doing evil. Let me learn to carry the cross daily.

Twenty of us church youths went for a movie together today. Night at the museum. It was great and hilarious. Hema joined us. After that, Ju, Yen, Hema, El Sen, Adrian and I went to Havana for dinner. Then Ju, Yen, Hema and I went to McD’s drive through for ice cream and stopped by the road side to eat. We had a chat. Conclusion, career first. Obviously we don’t do relationship. At least for now. This conver is needless, needless to say. It always ended the same. Then Ju, Yen and I went to Tmn Asean Mamak. The last time probably for this year… before we leave next week. Sigh. KL… Here I come again. Sigh. You are one crazy place.

Before I leave, I need to see Shan. So Shan, I am sorry I didn’t meet up with you earlier. I did not intend to ffk you whether you believe or not. (Neither do I intended to ffk Andrew) I will try to meet up with you if I could before the 3^rd.

This Sunday will be the bbq in Uncle Ivan’s place. I am looking forward for it. I think our church is the greatest company I can ever get besides my family. Man, the love and care given to us is so lavish I wouldn’t trade it for money. Okay, I better sign off now before I get all jiwang. Grinz. Next year will be going trough the third year of my life as a Christian. Ain’t it great? Passport to heaven. Hehe.

Lastly, Wong Twee Wen, Happie Birthday. You are one great brother to have.

-chenli-

[4.28AM]