Surprise. My heart was not moved. Zen. This is really it. You didn't win after all, Zen. I did. Hee.

Some notes

Date : 30th April 2007
Time : 7.09pm
Listening to : Nothing
Where : Office

Danny : I will hunt you down blog by blog.
Zafri : Thanks for your time. Will try to continue with da stories.
Sathom : Be happy dude.
Rin : Don't give up on your figures. All da best.
Scott : You also. Figures!!!
Chris : Thanks for da admin

I fell off the chair laughing

Date : 29th April 2007
Time : 3.37pm
Listening to : The girl who stole the star - Chrono Cross
Where : Office

Yesterday, i attended Melinda's 21st birthday. Saw Martin there and had a short crazy chat. Then i went over to Hema and Yen. Man... So long d since i last saw Hema. Yen also i rarely meet. Then Celine joined us. Wow...she changed... In a way... Hmmm... And yesterday was the first time i fell off my chair laughing. Darn lawak when we talked about our discipline teacher. Talking about it now also makes me laugh. Haha...

Took a number of cloud pictures yesterday. Today in church also. Wow...It';s really dangerous to snap pictures while driving. Don't try this at home. But the clouds formation were amazing ler.
I was the earliest in church today. They put on some curtains d. Sigh... So long d since i came back. I feel that it's long. Neway, many were not in church today. Went to Johor for the DMSJ quiz. Third place... *Grin* MGC ppl..you guys noe what it means.... And i can't believe it man... Hardly anyone recognized me. Jun Yi was to speak today and he said he was nervous cos he thought there would be a visitor in the midst. Kamaaaaaaan.... Su Chen also. Rebecca also said i looked different. Ah Zheng and Adrian also! Not to mention some of the aunties in da church. Aiyo.... Like i never tie my hair back before... I wonder how i looked like last time. Only without the specs only le. Kamaaaaan..... Ah Zheng said i looked spec-less.... Dot dot dot....

Kla... cabut first! tata!!

And Rin... u get off the pagar now man.

-chen-
[3.52pm]

Pole dancing? Grammar?

This is a conversation with my friend... Darn lawak mia fella. Hahaha..

Chen says:
jatuh cinta ker?
Chen says:
hehehe
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
huh/??
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
nono
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
lookin 4 cinta
Chen says:
i'm all about d luvvvvvvvvvvvv
Chen says:
wahahahaha
Chen says:
aper ni?
Chen says:
cari cinta?
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
yaya
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
interested??
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
very offer
Chen says:
aiyer...good offer?
Chen says:
hahaha
Chen says:
rugilaaaa
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
nono
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
very miss
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
miss buy 1 free 1 miss
Chen says:
eh...like one tim keong not bad enuff
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
haha
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
i changed ok
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
now im gentleman
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
got certificate sumore
Chen says:
erh....ermmm
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
so how??
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
interested or not??
Chen says:
u used to be pole dancer wor
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
yaya
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
tats in d pass
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
now im different!!!
Chen says:
haiya..this kinda bad history where can be the past one?
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
aiyo
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
dun like tat la
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
dun doubt my sincerity 2 change
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
can ask all my former pelanggan
Chen says:
pelanggan?! wah lao/.
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
y y??
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
y so shcoked?
Chen says:
meaning not loyal one la thjis dude
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
huh??
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
nono
Chen says:
haiya
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
tats not wat i meant
Chen says:
nonit explain liao
Chen says:
i noe exactly what u meant
Chen says:
u punk
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
haha
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
1st time some1 call me a punk
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
must take picture
Chen says:
gahahahahaa
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
next time i c u, must sign d pic ar
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
or not ppl wont blive
Chen says:
gahahaah..cis
Chen says:
i wun
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
weiiiiiiiiiii
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
y u alwiz anti me wan???
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
wat did i do 2 u??
Chen says:
hahahahahaah!!!!!! Nothing! Sajeeeee
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
yerrrrrr
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
worse
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
like tat aso can
Chen says:
of course can la! chen li ma!
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
haihz
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
y?? y me???
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
of all d ppl in d world
Chen says:
cos u tim keong ma
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
hmmm
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
true true
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
then nvm la
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
i accept
Chen says:
of course must except la!
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
wah
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
nonid so garang kua
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
eh y suddenly msg me wan ar??
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
u neva eva msg me wan
Chen says:
hahaha
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
got udang di sebalik batu izt??
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
u wan borrow money??
Chen says:
hahahahha
Chen says:
yeala...like i need to have prawn behind stone to message u
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
thennnnnnnnnnn
Chen says:
ur status also wanna crack me up kao kao d la!
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
ish
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
ppl tryin 2 courting ok
Chen says:
ae...kata kerja cannot come with -ing one ok?
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
hahaah
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
yes cikgu
Chen says:
if you have "to"...how to have -ing?
Chen says:
never learn english mer?
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
faham cikgu
Chen says:
good...
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
4got ade ma
Chen says:
now...next lesson
Chen says:
how to pole dance
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
.......
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
NOOOOOOOOOOO
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
nonono
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
i refuse!!
Chen says:
eh...what u thinking
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
im a good boy now
Chen says:
i am teaching you that if you have "to" at the front, cannot have -ing ma!
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
.....
Chen says:
You cannot say to pole-dancing
Chen says:
paham?
Chen says:
what u thinking la!
Chen says:
u think i want to teach you pole dance?
Chen says:
GILA!
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
wait wait
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
i wanna find my sweat emoticon
Chen says:
ghhahahaha
Chen says:
go and die la
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
wait a
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
stil finding
Chen says:
tgh tunggula ni
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
*Sweat emoticon*
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
got ade
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
YAY!!!
Chen says:
gahahahaha
Chen says:
tak guna man
Chen says:
i dowan u as student d la
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
haha
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
terselamat!!!
Chen says:
but i will send you to another teacher
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
noooooooooo
Chen says:
juliana tasha gomes
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
wait wait
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
i try find suitable emoticon
Chen says:
laoweh...u betul betul tak boleh harap le
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
*sleeping*
Chen says:
i tot i taught you well
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
y???
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
i thought i failed as ur student
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
kenot expect 2 much from me
Chen says:
memang you failed pun
TurnTablist Tim aka DJ T-Rox says:
eh eh

Neway...the pole dancing and stuff all was a joke la...obviously.... Cheh... But really lawak la talking to him. Hahahaah.... thanks Tim!

7.11pm

*Untitled 2*

Date : 28th April 2007
Time : 2.17pm
Listening to : Burn - Tina Arena
Where : Office

Nothing to blog about actually. Hmmm.... I'll surf the net awhile and come back them....[2.19pm]

[2.24pm] I just went thru my so-long-forgotten unread emails...and i found this funny chain letter.
..:PISCES:. The Piece of ass
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. Too Sexy, DAMN IT. Very high ### appeal. Has the last word. The best to find, hardest to keep. Fun to be around. Freak in the sheets. Extremely weird but in a good way. Super good in bed. Good Sense of Humor!!! Thoughtful. A partner for life. Always gets what he or she wants. Loves to joke. Very popular. Silly, fun and sweet. 5 years of bad luck if you do not forward.
5 years of bad luck? Wait...let me check who forwarded this to me... Ok...Kristie... Somebody i do not know that well. Man... when will they ever stop these chain letters ler? I havent's die yet due to unforwarded messages. Sheesh.... Ok...i'm off to find more stuff to post. [2.27pm]

[2.43pm] Really cannot tahan.... One more chain letter. Attached with a love story. Kamaaaaaaan..... Will die mer single?

If u open this U have to repost it or you will have bad luck for the rest of your life!!!!!!!............
Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you.
Something good will happen to you at approx 1:42pm tomorrow, it could be anywhere.
So get ready for the biggest shock of your life.
If you break this chain, you will be cursed with relationship problems for the most important time of your life.
Send this to 15 people in 15 minutes to carry on the chain...and spare you the emotional stress.

Hmmm.... Not that interesting... I'll come back to post more... This is kinda fun eh? [2.46pm]

[2.49pm] Now... This is one chain letter that i will share with people. Bear with me. Please read on.

Dear All
Hope you enjoy the story and learn the message

Please read until the end.

This is a good story and is true, please read it all the way through until the end! (After the story, there are some very interesting facts!):


I am a mother of three (ages 14, 12, 3) and have recently completed my college degree.

The last class I had to take was Sociology.

The teacher was absolutely inspiring with the qualities that I wish every human being had been graced with.

Her last project of the term was called "Smile."

The class was asked to go out and smile at three people and document their reactions.

I am a very friendly person and always smile at everyone and say hello anyway, so, I thought this would be a piece of cake, literally.

Soon after we were assigned the project, my husband, youngest son, and I went out to McDonald's one crisp March morning.

It was just our way of sharing special playtime with our son.

We were standing in line, waiting to be served, when all of a sudden everyone around us began to back away, and then even my husband did.

I did not move an inch... an overwhelming feeling of panic welled up inside of me as I turned to see why they had moved.


As I turned around I smelled a horrible "dirty body" smell, and there standing behind me were two poor homeless men.

As I looked down at the short gentleman, close to me, he was "smiling".

His beautiful sky blue eyes were full of God's Light as he searched for acceptance.

He said, "Good day" as he counted the few coins he had been clutching.

The second man fumbled with his hands as he stood behind his friend. I realized the second man was mentally challenged and the blue-eyed gentleman was his salvation.

I held my tears as I stood there with them.

The young lady at the counter asked him what they wanted.

He said, "Coffee is all Miss" because that was all they could afford. (If they wanted to sit in the restaurant and warm up, they had to buy something. He just wanted to be warm).

Then I really felt it - the compulsion was so great I almost reached out and embraced the little man with the blue eyes.

That is when I noticed all eyes in the restaurant were set on me, judging my every action.

I smiled and asked the young lady behind the counter to give me two more breakfast meals on a separate tray.

I then walked around the corner to the table that the men had chosen as a resting spot. I put the tray on the table and laid my hand on the blue-eyed gentleman's cold hand.

He looked up at me, with tears in his eyes, and said, "Thank you."

I leaned over, began to pat his hand and said, "I did not do this for you. God is here working through me to give you hope."

I started to cry as I walked away to join my husband and son. When I sat down my husband smiled at me and said, "That is why God gave you to me, Honey, to give me hope."

We held hands for a moment and at that time, we knew that only because of the Grace that we had been given were we able to give.

We are not church goers, but we are believers.

That day showed me the pure Light of God's sweet love.

I returned to college, on the last evening of class, with this story in hand

I turned in "my project" and the instructor read it.

Then she looked up at me and said, "Can I share this?"

I slowly nodded as she got the attention of the class.

She began to read and that is when I knew that we as human beings and being part of God share this need to heal people and to be healed.

In my own way I had touched the people at McDonald's, my husband, son, instructor, and every soul that shared the classroom on the last night I spent as a college student.

I graduated with one of the biggest lessons I would ever learn: UNCONDITIONAL ACCEPTANCE.

Much love and compassion is sent to each and every person who may read this and learn how to

LOVE PEOPLE AND USE THINGS - Never LOVE THINGS AND USE PEOPLE.

If you think this story has touched you in any way, please send this to everyone you know.

There is an Angel sent to watch over you.

In order for h im to work, you must pass this on to the people you want watched over.

An Angel wrote:
Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.

To handle yourself, use your head.

To handle others, use your heart.

God Gives every bird its food, but He does not throw it into its nest.

Keep this going

Actually, i have alot to say on this but let just keep it to myself la k? [2.51pm]

[3.05pm] Eh, Scott... you din die in my hands consider urself lucky dude! *frown* No, wait... unlucky. Cos i rarely wanna kill people so yeah... Ae, nemind. Whatever. Heeeee.... [3.06pm]

[3.12pm] Eh!! Don't torture me anymore can or not? Over means over la u bising so much for what???? Ish! Ahem.... Sorry.... Saje.... wanna yell at someone...[3.15pm]

[3.34pm] Still nothing to blog about... But i intend to keep this long man...[3.35pm]

[3.55pm] Sigh...k.... 20 minutes d...still nothing. What is this man... So not me. Doing random stuff like this.... Must be the knock on d forehead. I post weird stuff nowadays.

Let it be if we're nothing more than dreamers
Who believe that we see no one between us
How can they be in my heart
And in my mind
Knowing that hate is wrong
And love is right
And the world is so beautiful tonight
It's a place I've never been
And it comes from deep within
And it's telling me
That I'm about to win first prize
Knowing all I have to do
Is reach out my hand to you....

-Quoted-

ok... About time to go.

-chen-
[4.05pm]

*Untitled*

Date : 27th April 2007
Time : 4.20PM
Where : Office
Listening to : The girl who stole the star - chrono cross

Okay. First, God, i thank you for my high ego regarding this matter. This ego was the only thing that kept me from sinning against You aside from the knowledge of what is good or right. Because of this ego, i did not reveal the truth. I know it is such contradiction to say this but it is this ego that prevented me from telling the truth. This ego i will keep.

Secondly, I surrendered. It's a story that i want to end. It ended well i guess. As an ordinary person, it did not end well for me but as a Christian, it ended perfectly for me. I am grateful. On second thought, i didn't surrender. I just won a spiritual battle. I hope i did.

Thirdly, I am safe. *grin*


-chen-
Ends : 4.37PM

A tribute to my diedethians friends

Date : 26th April 2007
Time : 3.21pm
Where : Office
Listening to : Kiss me goodbye (Instrumental) - FFXII

Happy birthday dad! Woohoo! I dunno how old you are, but yeah...always 40 to me! Love yea lotz!

Neway, term finally ended. In my previous post, i said i didn't feel anything, but back here in Malacca, sitting in front of this unfamiliar computer, i finally felt something. Maybe it's just the music. Yeah, like the messages that i sent to you guys, i won't miss you guys. But i feel it's only right to just thank each one of you people for bearing with me for 2 terms.

Amir - You are one person in college that actually kept my spiritual condition in place. Thank you. I know we are of different faith but i am glad that you are willing to step forward to learn about my faith. You are a good friend. Before i end, it's okay to not conform to what other feel. And thank you for being there to listen whenever i was troubled by something. The carpark was a good place to talk. Talk to me, if you ever need a person to listen. That is if i am the right person. *Grin* It is great being in the same class as you.

Bryan - Aiyo.... Bryan ar.... Cis... Never thought i'll end up in the same major as you. Neway, you are really one creative dude you know? But such a perfectionist! *Frown* But i am glad that we are in the same class. You self-acclaimed emotionally void person... so not true. Don't ask why. I won't tell. But thank you for being so patient with me whenever i had my mood swing. I am one mad person. You should know by now yeah? Heehee...

Christine - Gahahaha... Christine. Ae, i really... really...never ever thought i would hang out with you this much you know? Watching TMNT together and stuff... You are really adorable. I thought you were a quiet girl but...errr... rasa-rasanyer i kena tipu d la. It's not like Zaf, Sathom and i wanna bully you okay? But you are such an easy target le... So yeah... I really had a great time with you. And you said you will be there for me in spirit yeah? Hehe....

Chris - Monitor!!! Surprisingly, i will really miss you. But we'll be in same major so...yeah... Hey, i know i was really one irritating Mother Superior. But you are one strict and weird pastor le. Hahaha... I must admit that you are one person that keep this class together somehow. Always defending us whenever our class was erm... annoying lecturers. Also, i know that all of us are different in our own ways so it's gonna be tough to deal with us. Will always remember that you will die WITH us but not FOR us... Hehe...

Danny - Danny boy ar... My little bro that always reminded me to work hard for my studies. Thanks a lot too for always be there to correct my faults and to listen to me ranting about my feelings and stuff. Sorry for being so harsh at you at times but believe me, it's really really because i care la k? Remember what i said before i came back malacca. Don't be addicted. Any problem, i will listen to you. Okay?

David - Oi, Xavier... You self-sacrificial dude... Thats whyt you claim to be. Yeah, i must admit that sometimes you do protray yourself that way. Thanks, David. Alot... for reminding me that God is strong for us who are weak and not to give up. You are so full of ideas and you can't stop talking one la!!!! Haha... It's interesting whenever you said, "Wanna listen?".... And it will go on and on and on.... Fuh.... Hehe..But really, it is interesting to listen how your mind works...

Hailam - You are so quiet but it was great working with you for our final project. You have so much ideas. I hope one day you really step out of your shell. All the best yea!

James - James..ar James... My brother in Christ... Man... It's really funny to hear you laugh. You do protrayed yourself as an impatient guy but i am really surprised that you are very the patient. And i forgive you for making my life so miserable by teaming up with that 2 dudes!! Oi, i am your sister in Christ for goodness sake. Show some support to me can?

Michelle Junia - Ooooh... The excited girl. Hey, you know... I admire your joy. Always so happy. And never fail to pass up your work. Your reaction to certain stuff is hilarious you know? Especially when you talk to Joseph on da phone. Totally cracked me up... Gosh...

Michelle Lim - Hey... I can't help it... You are short... hehe... Can't really remember how we met but i do remember something. When we were exchanging our numbers in front of Meng Tien, i did complained about you using Digi... So... Why havent you change to Maxis yet?!?!?! Aiyo... Neway... I am glad to know you. I thought i won't like anything Gothic but i like your style, know? Hee...

Sathom - You... Sigh... I am seriously speechless you know? Your emotion actually affected mine and it's so not nice! Sheesh... Nemind. Neway, you are a great friend as long as you are not such a bully. Orangu no. satu.... Morangasli.... Hahaha... You creater of all words. It's great to know you despite of your...ahem...irritating trademarks. I dropped that book so go for it dude. Tell me about it. Hee.... I was irritatingly loud i know. Bear with it man. And be happy always, dude.

Scott - Dude... Sorry la if i nagged you too much on swearing and stuff. But i will still nag you if it's not for your human rights to swear. =) Glad to see that you improved on your work this term. You are a good friend. Thanks for calling when i was really stressed out like gila. Haha...

Shirin - You emo girl. I as the Mother Superior totally disagree on hugging every guys in class!!!! No serial huggers shall go unpunished! Ahem... I shall keep my composure. Hehe... But you are one interesting girl. So emo. Haih, Rin... I am really glad to have known you. A part of you actually reminded me of myself. Not too much but enough. Hope you will one day find a part of you that will stay emo-free all the time. *Grin*

Sophia - Girl... Your laughter...Very the contagious le... So easily amused. Neway, you are one good friend. Don't be easily influenced by the bad things ar... You know? Keep your eyes on Jesus...

Ting Wei - Hmmmph! This girl... You ar... Darn jahat one you know. Ish... But still, you are darn photogenic. Buat benci only. Hehe... Keep your adorable cuteness in you. Really... You are a good listener... Be happy always.

Zafri - Cis... You gimme headache la. Tergamak man you and Sathom make my life miserable like that. All i asked for was a peaceful life and you guys destroyed it?!?!?! Ish... But still, thanks alot for whatever help that you've given me. You come to Malacca, i will blanja you durian chendol. I know you are addicted to it. Sheesh.... And you made me addicted to MCR okay?!?!?!! Sakit my kepala man.... And don't go all spicy out of the sudden again.

Zheng - Finally... Lee Yi Zheng. You... Sigh... The cause for many of my emotional distress. Haha... But no worries. I hope i didn't pressure you too much this term. Thank you for listening to me ranting about my discontentment and stuff. Both of us ended this term with a burden that only both of us can lift. You can't lift mine and i can't lift yours no matter how much we spoke to each other about it. It's a triangle that can never close. I hope our friendship will remain strong. If you need a listener, i am willing to listen. You understand? Don't worry about me man... You know i can get thru this problem. I am too ego when it comes to this matter, remember? And for you, i will not worry about you cos' you will get thru it too. Be happy.

Lastly, to Helmi... Ae... helmi... You ar... Ish... Entahla... Luckily i was the one holding on to your phone, if not, dunno how many times you would have join league with the rest to make my life more miserable. Don't deny it maaaaaan.......... Ish... But i am glad you joined our diedethian class... Hehe...

Okay... This is long... Haih... Guys, if i've done anything that offended you guys, really, i am sorry. Any misunderstanding that i've caused, i am sorry too. Man, i have to get off this chair... Kla... See you guys.... in 3 weeks except for the other 6 that will come and "intrude" my peaceful life in malacca. *Grin*

Ends : 4.47pm

White Flag #2

Date : 21st April 2007
Time : 5.10pm
Where : Zheng's place
Listening to : Jacky cheung (Black and white)

Today was our last day as a class together. Dunno.... I am not sad or anything. I dunno if it's because i was overly stressed lately. Yesterday, i was stressed until my veins could just pop. No kidding. i got 15 out of 20 for my weekly progress for my photoshop class and i lost the sketchbook containing my job brief. On the day of submission itself. My God! That's what i said.... And i was so stressed i just cried and i can't stop. My bro came all the way from home to check on me. He is so nice. And sammo, after all the night spent doing my photoshop which i think turned out brilliant counted for nothing at all since i already lost 15 marks there d.... That's what i feel. And my copywriting test and final presentation were on the same day and my group can't finish our visual... I was so stressed out i can't even fake a smile le. I wanted so badly to just go home and skip my presentation. Pinky, my lecturer was kind and understanding enough to allow me in and out of the class to finish the stuff with Danny and Hailam. And allowed us to go last. Thank God. Still, i wasn't sure about my speech. When it was time to present, i dunno why i could talk rather fluently. We were doing panel ads for Whizz-Kidz... It's and organization that provides customized wheelchair for mobile disabled kids. Thank God man. Danny and Hailam did and excellent job with the visual. I think it's easier for me to talk about this NGO ads because like Pinky said, it's really something that's close to my heart la. But all tribute goes to God and my team mates. Pinky likes the copywriting. It took me like an hour to think of them man.... She said it's worth showing the series of ads to the next batch. After the presentation, i finally grinned. Haih.... What a relief. Haitham said, "Awwww.... Finally she has a smile on her face..."

Ok.... Regarding my title... White Flag #2... I give up. Think of me as you like... I don't care anymore. You think i need you, you are wrong. If you think my portrayal of sincerity is giving you wrong signal, i don't care. Now, don't ever think i need a guy. I love you, but not that way. Don't... Just don't do this to me if you really want me to be happy. I am tired of being misunderstood anymore okay? This will be last of me saying this. I will not and i refuse to deal with this anymore. And for others who think exactly the same thing, JUST THINK LA whatever you guys want. And DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT ask me what this is all about. Thank you. You win. I lost. I know. So be it.

I shall not blog about my horrendous final 2 weeks now. Maybe when back in Malacca. K...chao first... One more final project to do before i have to go thru another ordeal of Option to Progress... If i kena.... Sheesh....

white flag

sigh...sad... i gotta know from yuan yuan that debbie was disappointed with our class performance. I think i am feeling bad about this... i cease war...........

My first war

Effective on 3rd April at 1.03AM... I declare war against Debbie. Letters so big! Make the whole sculptor looks so rigid and stiff and how the heck my letters supposed to look its best?!?!?!?!?! DUDE! I am going mad!