sick

Date : 30th August 2007
Time : 1.55AM
Listening to : Because I love you - Shakin Steven
Where : Room - Malacca

I think I have a heart condition. Adoih.... So many days d. I slept 18 hours straight. Couldn't even stand straight. Bluek. I hate throwing up. I don't like being sick. First my mom, then my sis, then me....now the other 2 bros also showing symptoms d.

Okay Andrew. So you are leaving d yea. Thanks for the song on the blog. Will find a day to listen to it. =) Anyway, sorry that I can't meet you. 1 more day left but dunnoe will meet not la. Projects pending like mountain. Sammo sick like cow like that. Anyway, should we not meet, you take care of yourself man.

-chen-
[1.59am]

Mister #1,2,3

Date : 28th August 2007
Time : 12.30AM
Listening to : How do you love - Collective Soul
Where : Room - Malacca

Okay, listen here mister. Dengar baik baik. What was in the past, it's in the past okay? Ish... You got no upper hand yea, friend. Hi bye is good. Love, no. Okay...this one is for Mr #1.

You, also listen ar. Don't wait. 2 years very the long ok? And 2 more years lagi long ok? And I am very very mean one ok when it comes to this thing? Friends are good. Me, not good. This is for Mister #2.

Lastly, you ar... I can replace your name with that Seymore song. Guy girl memang can be good friends ok. Platonic. We both believe that. Thank God! This is for Mister #3.

Mister #1 - we sms-ed
Mister #2 - we were on chat box
Mister #3 - I am currently chatting with you on MSN with YK

My last emo post. OK? I am going for a long fast from anger.

In a little while from now,
If I'm not feeling any less sour
I promised myself to treat myself
And visit a nearby tower,
And climbing to the top,
Will throw myself off
In an effort to make it clear to who
Ever what it's like when your shattered
Left standing in the lurch, at a church
Where people 're saying,
"My God that's tough, she stood him up!
No point in us remaining.
May as well go home."
As I did on my own,
Alone again, naturally

Alone Again - Gilbert O' Sullivan

And no... I have no suicide thought. I just like the title. Cos it suits me well.

Chio??????????

Date : 27th August 2007
Time : 8.50pm
Listening to : My bros playing games
Where : Room - KL

Ok..very short random post here. I REALLY HATE THE WAY THEY USED THE WORD,


chio

It means cute. And no, it's not because of the meaning. Its just that word. I don;t know why lah. Everytime I read posts and stuff and things like... "That dog is so chio right?!?!"... " It comes with chio pouch!".... "Yoh...that guys is so chio"... "Don't act chio la..." My face will be like....


Ugh.... I also dunnoe why. Dah lah... Aku ni tak betul d. Chen is under restraining order!


-Chenli-
[8.59pm]

Grow for me

Date : 26th August 2007
Time : 10.42pm
Listening to : Nothing
Where : Room - Malacca

Hoi....Tired nyer.... Won't elaborate much on this post. Maybe the next post gonna be a super d duper long one. Maybe longer than the one before. Complete with photos and stuff...

Anyway, I went back for my grandpa's birthday in Teluk Intan. This trip was one of the rarest trip we ever made as a whole complet Wong family...mom's side. Yeah...both parents are Wong. My sis made it back despite all odds. My bro didn't have to attend class and blablabla... Nice gathering. Took a family pic. Ok...I will stop here....

Sis is really unwell...and her unfortunate unintelligent lecturer didn't wanna believe her but we still hold her at home to recover. She's not going back till Tuesday. Ish...aku banyak mia upset tau sama itu olang. -__________-# Takper. I tahan. Hopefully wouldn't fail my sis.

I watched Grease 3 times. And he looked like me cousin when young... No..rephrase....reminded me of... Wa....my cinta wanna blossom like Audrey II from The Little Shop of Horror. This is another great show. Watched it since I was real young. Seymore is so adorable....And he talks to plant. AudreyII. Hoho.....

Kla..gtg... This is a song by Seymore talking to his plant Audrey II. The first video is the original. the second is a school play based on this musical. It's a lil' different but equally good.

[SEYMOUR]
I've given you sunshine
I've given you dirt.
You've given me nothing
But heartache and hurt.
I'm beggin' you sweetly.
I'm down on my knees.
Oh, please-grow for me!

I've given you plant food
And water to sip.
I've given you potash.
You've given me zip.
Oh God, how I mist you
Oh pod, how you tease
Now, please-grow for me!

I've given you southern exposure
To get you to thrive.
I've pinched you back hard,
Like I'm s'posed ta.
You're barely alive.
I've tried you at levels of moisture
From desert to mud.
I've given you grow-lights
And mineral supplements.
What do you want from me- Blood?

I've given you sunlight.
I've given you rain.
Looks like you're not happy,
'Less I open a vein.
I'll give you a few drops
If that'll appease.
Now please-oh please-grow for me!

Grow for me - The Little Shop of Horror (Seymore)

The other songs in this musical are equally good and funny. Check it out.

I am so mad >:|

Date : 24th August 2007
Time : 2.55pm
Listening to : NOTHING!
Where : Design Room - Office

>:| Marah lah aku. Been working on that same master bedroom for 3 days lae! Change this and that, here and there. Ok la... I know la...we must come up with the best design ...the nicest... and I seriously don't want to sound like I am mad with her or anything. I am not. But just super frustrated cos' I hate repeating works. My back hurts and my head ached since last night and super d duper not in a good mood but I WILL BE GOOD! Been losing my temper very easily this term break. Hate it. Noooooo... Wong Chen Li...Kenapa you asyik wanna marah people? Just shut up lah and count to 10!

Grease

Date : 23rd August 2007
Time : 12.13AM
Listening to : You're the one that I want - Grease (It's playing again and again in my head!)
Where : Room - Malacca

I AM SO IN LOVE WITH JOHN TRAVOLTA! He is so sexy and ... sexy...and so adorable!!!! The way he danced and sand and smiled and the ever so stupid expression that he had on whenever he drooled for Olivia Newton John.... *Drools* I am so..... in love...Corbin Bleu can step aside now. I was telling my bro that the character he acted in Jump were like Sathom after watching it the 2nd time. But John Travolta totally knocks Corbin Bleu down man. I LOVE YOU JOHNNY!!!! I can't stop smiling man when I watched Grease. I repeated it a couple of times. *Grin dreamily* He is so....sexy..... Summer nights..... Anyway, one very funny quote from Grease.

He is a rat... He is a flea on the rat. No... He's an amoeba on the flea.

Something like that. And the girl was talking about boys in general. I laughed. Of course I don't think so lah. If this is the case, then I got something to say to Thye Chuan.

"Monyet, you are so small that El won't notice you until I force her to look through the microscope."

Hahahahaha! And I still prefer Sandra as Sandra Dee though I love the song that is playing in my head now.

Okay, serious stuff now. I had the worst verbal fight with both my bros today. Will not elaborate. It's been so long since I last encounter such situation. It was awkward saying sorry to each other after that. Even after that, I squirmed in my seat in the office. I just felt so weird and I couldn't concentrate on work. We're okay now but it was so weird.

Went Kampung Pantai to eat today. Fantastic old school shop man. It was like my cravings were answered. I was thinking to myself, "I wanna go Kampung Pantai eat" but didn't wanna tell my parents cos' they might say it's too far. It's near A Famosa. But suddenly my dad brought us there. Wooooo..... O.0

Okay, lastly... Kena tagged from Karen.... I don't usually do tags la har but this one seems ok.

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1) Each player must post these rules first. 2) Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves. 3) People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules. 4) At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names. 5) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.
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1. My ego is super high and yet I always do things that contradict this fact. Dunnoe why. When I did something that I know I didn't want to do when I was having a clear mind, I will go home and started scolding myself about it and told myself not to do that again. Usually happened when I like someone. -________-! But when comes to serious stuff, I won't do alot of things because of ego. And honestly, this ego had been the thing that always stood between me and embarrassing things that I might do. It was is a God blessing. I once sms-ed my bro and scolded him for something that he did and after that I sms-ed back and said, "I am sorry I yelled but don't reply back. My ego very high one." Tuish.... My ego...is that high in a weird sense.
Fact #1 : Wong Chen Li ego tak bertempat and ego freak.

2.I dream everytime I sleep. And 9 3/4 out of 10 dreams I had are nice. Usually 10/10. Really. Even if my dreams were bad, it will still be nice in a way. And I can remember 75% of them usually. When I get real bored, sometimes I will just sit down and think back of the different dreams that I had. Fact #2 : Wong Chen Li is a dreamer.

3. In my entire life, I've told only one boy that is not related to me that I love him. As a friend. Purely as a friend. Wrote it in a letter cos' my ego so darn high right, I can't do it face to face even though it was purely friendly. He was leaving for studies again. You know who you are. Yeh! happie right?!?!?! Finally know you are the only one. I was being a paranoid cos' I was thinking if I won't see you again at least you would know that you are a good friend and I do treasure you. Eh, no other guys ever get that from me ok? In black and white sammo.
Fact #3 : Wong Chen Li sayang kawan.

4. I hate confrontation. I will do anything to avoid it. And I hate confession of feelings. I have this con-phobic thingy. I rather know it from others than from you if it's about feelings unless of course you don't like the way i dealt with things and you want me to know about it. When it comes to confessions and confrontations, fear will find its way in my blood and I will seriously be so scared before the conversation or pre-meeting up with that specific person that I might just end up breaking down and cry. Fact #4 : Wong Chen Li coward.

5. I am the target for most of the street liars.... And even though I know I was in the middle of kena conned right, I would stand there and listen to what they had to say cos' I felt real bad to walk off. And I will feel really frustrated about myself and pissed off with that person. Not because of the money but because in every situation that I was caught in, I was being nice to them and in return, they took advantage of me. I told myself so many times and so many people told me so many times to just walk away and DO NOT MAKE EYE CONTACT! There was once I was left with only 8 bucks in my wallet for the whole week and a guy stopped to ask for direction and started telling me about my fortune. And asked for money. !!!!! And I was so nice sammo even though dalam hati I rasa nak mati. I told him, I was left with 8 bucks and I OFFERED HIM 5 bucks! I was thanking God that he didn't complain cos' he asked for 10 at first. It was as if I owed him you know. I felt bad for him in the end. I SHOULD FEEL BAD FOR MYSELF LAE! Fact #5 : Wong Chen Li = Orang bodoh.

6. I have 9 diaries and still counting. Started writing since 13. Since I went up Kay El, jarang write d. And if anyone caught hold of one, and reads about it now, I might have suicidal thought.
Fact #6 : Wong Chen Li is a sentimental writer.

7. I can be very hot-tempered. When pushed to the limit, I can be really bad. It's more than just walking extremely fast. I could say things that are hurtful. And I could actually curse. So far, only one person made me do that. And I hope to be the last. I am usually more patient with outsiders than with my family members. I took them for granted I guess. A public apology for all of you guys. Fact #7 : Wong Chen Li can be really bad

8. My one and only relationship lasted only 3 weeks. The reason it ended was because he said I love you. I called him up and I said, "We are through".
Fact #8 : Wong Chen Li not cut out for relationship so don't try.

I tag : nobody.... The ordeal of finding 8 facts about me was as bad as doing my last History of Art and Design 2 final assignment. So, I shall ott tag anyone. But feel free to be tagged!

Okay...So what song should I put today? I insist on Grease songs... But which one. I guess I would post the one that kept on playing my head. For the last time in this post... He is so sexy lah!

B= boy/ Danny
G=Girl/Sandy
B: both

G: Tell me about it stud!

B: I got chills.
They're multiplyin'.
And I'm losin' control.
'Cause the power
you're suplyin',
it's electrifyin'!

G: You better shape up,
'cause I need a man
and my heart is set on you.
You better shape up;
you better understand
to my heart I must be true.

Both: Nothin' left, nothin' left for me to do.

Both: You're the one that I want.
(you are the one i want), o,o, oo, honey.
The one that I want.
(you are the one i want), o,o,oo, honey.
The one that I want
You,(you are the one i want), o,o, ooooo
The one I need.
Oh, yes indeed.

G: If you're filled
with affection
you're to shy to convey,
meditate in my direction.
Feel your way.

B: I better shape up,
'cause you need a man
G: i need a man
who can keep me satisfied.
B: I better shape up
if I'm gonna prove
G: you better prove
that my faith is justified.

B:Are you sure?
G:Yes, I'm sure down deep inside.

You're the one that I want.
(you are the one i want), , o,o, oo, honey.
The one that I want.
(you are the one i want), , o,o,oo, honey.
The one that I want
(you are the one i want), , oo, oo
are what I need.
Oh, yes indeed.

You're the one that I want - Grease (John Travolta + Olivia N.John)

Yeap. For the last time. He is so charming........................

-chen-
[1.34AM]

Work............

Date : 21 August 2007
Time : 11.10PM
Listening to : Your heart will lead you home - Kenny Loggins
Where : Room - Malacca

Life was hectic. My shoulder aches. I am tired. But I like my job. Sometimes I really wonder how did I ever major in Multimedia Design. Sitting in front of the computer totally stretched my muscles' endurance. -__-! Anyway, am working with my Ma now. Dengan penatnyer I had to finish the showhouse in Segamat a couple of days ago. Thank God Vincent finished the construction for a couple of rooms d. And I have complains. Where got Masterbedroom smaller than other rooms one? I think the architect for the houses doesn't have any idea about interior design and furniture. No kidding ok. Luckily the houses not built yet and my mom still was able to tell them the "almost impossible" room to do ID.



The Master Bedroom

Really don't want to go back college yet. Sophia was like, "Holiday more than one month not enough meh?" Of course not lah..... But Andrew going off to America again. 10 more days! Alaaaa.... Okay la...make you feel better... Still long wat! Haha... And don't worry lah.... Like chuan said...

chuan: dude... the lepaking will nv end... the mamaks will nv close down cos we will alwiz b there... n the wongchenliwongchenliwongchenli bass will still sound as long as we remember each other...

Or you want the songs har? Hehe... Hung out more often this time hor? Takper la.... But I really have to find ur ufti d man. if not.... T.T Nope...I won't be sad. Nyahnyahnyah!!!!

Hakuna Matata!

Actually, I wanted to post the hakuna matata song but next year, Chuan, Shan and I might just sing this song for you lah har! If you come back lah.

Welcome back
Your dreams were your ticket out
Welcome back
To that same old place that you laughed about
Well the names have all changed since you hung around
But those dreams have remained and they've turned around
Who'd have thought they'd lead ya
(who'd have thought they'd lead ya)
Back here where we need ya
(back here where we need ya)
Yeah, we tease him a lot 'cause we got him on the spot
Welcome back
Welcome back, welcome back, welcome back
Welcome back, welcome back, welcome back

Welcome back
We always could spot a friend, welcome back
Welcome back
And I smile when I think how you must have been
And I know what a scene you were learning in
Was there something that made you come back again
And what could ever lead ya
(what could ever lead ya)
Back here where we need ya
(back here where we need ya)
Yeah, we tease him a lot cause we got him on the spot
Welcome back
Welcome back, welcome back, welcome back
Welcome back, welcome back

Welcome Back - John Sebastian

I also dunnoe what song is this but we will definately welcome you back and hopefully by then Chuan is with El ahem... edi. Haha!

-chen-
[11.30pm]

A super duper ultra long update

Date : 20th August 2007
Time : 8.22pm
Listening to : Let there be love - Cliff Richard & Matt Monro
Where : Room - Malacca

This is so going to be long. Anyway, on Wednesday, I had lunch with Irene. While waiting for her to have lunch break, I went over to the library and I stumbled upon this greeting cards book. Boleh pengsan. So nice. And I took pictures of the work like kao until I ran out of battery. --! Anyway, we had lunch at Sunway Pyramid. Had a great time talking to her. She seemed very happy with her life now. Hehe. After lunch, I went back to the library and browsed through a couple of books more before I cabut-ed home.

*Break : Talking to Yi Kwan*

Ok...Back... She's okay d. Can joke and stuff... Menakutkan betul. Report of her condition will be out soon. Anyway, the next day, which was a Thursday, I woke up late. Zafri was to fetch me to Sunway Pyramid to meet up Rin for Ratatouille movie. Alaaa....Lambat la aku. Thanks yea Zaf for waiting. Anyway, we were late anyway while waiting or Mandy. Anyway, movie review....
FANTASTIC wei.... Good animation, good storyline.... And my cute Linguini..... *Drool* Linguini is a guy ok? And Rin and I had a Ratatouille item home. Now I can stare at my Linguini with love. After the movie, we went to Pizza Hut for lunch. Bryan met us there. My lips were chapping like gila. Rin had her choir practice in Drama Lab after that so I went to Study Room next door to do the Guest Book. Met Joshua there and got to know a 1st term junior named Ah Fatt there. Chatted with Bryan, Zafri, Josh, Ah Fatt and Mandy there. Mandy had to leave early. Pinky was at the Drama Lab to watch the choir. I went in to watch a while too. All in all.... It was a great choir. Then Andrew from Term 2 came. Bryan and I chatted with him. When everyone left, I waited for Yao Wei to fetch me to my bro's grad in AsiaWork. Went to fetch Valerie and Roderick also.

The guest event was good. interesting and a lot of people started telling me and Roderick about this and that. And Roderick akirnya terpaksa go to counter. hahaha. He asked me how I managed to avoid being pulled. Haha... But anyway, it ws really interesting. And then Yao Wei brought us to SS2 Murni to eat. Lawak betul the journey there. Yao Wei had sunburn and we totally tortured him man. Haha.... And jokes about Roderick kena kidnap were so funny. And Valerie and I thought of all sorts of idea to protect Yao Wei from sunburn. I was so tired man when I reached home. It was 2.00AM.

The next day, I woke up dengan malasnyer to continue my work. i managed to finish the 2 guestbooks but I didn't finish the card. I left for college at around 5.00pm. Met Pinky at the audi. Then Rin came and I went to watch her team practiced. Got to know a couple of juniors and a few seniors. The whole CD075-2 were involved in the event. But I can't remember their names. Too little time ar. Anyway, I helped a little bit with the souvenirs. I had to leave and I kept Hitoshi (I dunnoe whether correct or not) waiting. Lol... I asked Rin to tell him I had to leave. Rin followed me home. Yao Wei came to pick us. My bro went to stay over at his place for the night.

I woke up at 5.00AM to finish the card. I finished at 7.00AM. Then Zafri came to pick Rin and I up at 9.00AM. We were late cos' we couldn't get ourselves up. -.-! Anyway, the event was great. TOA : TQM. The One Academy : Thank You Malaysia. The special children enjoyed themselves especially during the 2 dramas by the juniors. Fantastic, it was super funny. They definately will enjoy drama class next term. Anyway, I was really impressed by the way the Foot & Mouth artists painted their painting using their feet. And I learned stuff from Mr. Sunny from P.S The Children. The Grooming Process.... Anyway, Got to know Ah Fatt's classmate, Cheryl I think. I helped to arranged the chair before Melinda and Geng Yi came to fetch me back to MC to pick my stuff and bro up. We headed back to Malacca after that. I was so dead tired that I slept all the way back to Malacca. Was rushing for Yen's birthday party.

Reaching home, my parents brought us out to eat. I was contemplating whether I should drive to yen' place cos I was so tired and I was afraid that there might not be parking. But I ended up driving.

Yen's party was great la. I met Ying Fen. It was like 3 years or so since I last met her. And sammo it's like a church gathering with the church members there. And Thye Chuan and Andrew were there too. Yen Mei banyak kawan yea? Hehehehe.... Anyway, took a lot of pictures there. We sang the birthday song 3 times. Wahahaha.... Sengaja mia. Elsen came too. And with the chicken massacre... Lol... It was darn funny wei. I said I was tired ut I ended up laughing like the whole time. And Yen's niece so cute lah. She posed like model only. Haha... And Marcus came late. Apala.... Sammo came with sad news. He's leaving. Why so many people leaving wor?
Apala... Anyway, This stupiak mia monkey TC... You cracked the egg on my head lae! I tell AHEM only you know. She's in my college ok? And Melissa and Ngan were there to. And people just called Chen Li and I would turn but they ended up laughing cos' they knew I would turn and they would say they were calling Ngan. Super unfair ok??? I had the same name laeeeeeeeeeeeee..... Haha... And the food was great tho I didn't eat much.

After the party, I dropped Yik How home and Andrew, Thye Chuan and I went to Malim to meet with KJ and Kim Kiat. All the way there, we sang songs with my name in it. Bongoknyer... So crazee la... darn lawak... Super gila. Mel joined us after that. Chatted awhile before each of us driver sere to send one person home. Mel drove Andrew cos' he was on the way. Joon drove Thye Chuan cos they both lived near Klebang and I drove Kim Kiat for the first time cos' he satyed in Taman Asean. It was a great day. Started off with the Merdeka Celebration in college followed by yen's party and meeting up with friends. I didn't now I talked to kelvin. Lol.

Church was good. But I was sleepy. I was surprise to see Stephen there. Orang yang masih belum pulangkan my pen. -____-!! Anyway, after service, we went to Auntie Kim Neo's place for the breaking of bread with her. I was kinda scared to meet her. I don't know how she will look like. And I was scared that I might cry. But auntie Tina said she's still the same. ust that her hair fell and became thinner. I was thinking maybe like my uncle like that so maybe not too bad. But when I met her, she was so thin and frail. So sad. We held hands for a while. She was still so cheerful. I was so ashamed of myself. She was so weak and yet her faith was so strong. And there I was, not even able to concentrate during worship. After all the church members came, we started the communion. Frankly.... the few songs I sang there, felt so much more meaningful. During prayer, I hesitated. Adrian kept on pestering me to pray. And suddenly, I just prayed. I was really ashamed of myself. I really was. Where did my fire gone to? Did I really backslide that bad? There was a time when I can't go through a day without my Bible. Now where am I? I am practically the prodigal son that haven't come back. Sometimes I wished I could turn back to December 2004. To the time when Uncle Steven told me, "Start reading the book of Luke... Since Christmas is coming"... I did... In secret. My parents didn't know. Underground Christian then. And sometimes I wished I was back to January 2006. GLO Bible School... I was fervent then. What happened now? I am so not supposed to be like this. Right after going KL my faith became like mud slide. This is so not suppose to happen. And I am not to blame KL. I am lacked of self-control. Sigh...............

Lastly, Teo Yen Mei. Happie Birthday!! May you have a God blessed life!

There is a candle in every soul
Some brightly burning,
Some dark and cold
There is a spirit who brings the fire
Ignites his candle and makes his home

Carry your candle,
Run to the darkness
Seek out the hopeless, confused and torn
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle and go light your world

Frustrated brothers,
see how he's tried to
Light his own candle some other way
See now our sister,
She's been robbed and lied to
Still holds a candle without a flame

So carry your candle,
run to the darkness
Seek out the lonely,
the tired and worn
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle and
go light your world

We are a family whose hearts are blazing
We raise our candles and light up the sky
Praying to our Father, "In the name of Jesus
Make us a beacon in darkest times!"

Carry your candle, run to the darkness
Seek out the helpless, deceived and poor
Hold out your candle for all to see it
Take your candle and go light your world.

Go light your world - Kathy Troccoli

Will update the pictures later. I have to now go and finish all the ID works. And I really don't want to be the person I am now. Sorry for every single hurtful things I've done.

-chenli-
[9.46pm]

Happy birthday Michelle!

Date : 15th August 2007
Time : 7.44PM
Listening to : Alone again (Naturally) - Gilbert O' Sullivan
Where : Room - Mentari Court

First of all....

Happy Birthday,
Michelle!!!!!

Hehe... Hope you have all your wishes fulfilled and have a God-blessed birthday!


Anyway, yesterday, I went to visit my uncle. He is alot better. And my mom and he told me and my cousin their childhood stories. It was really good to hear them telling us all those wonderful time. Will blog bout it later. Right now, have to finish up Pinky's stuff.

Michelle, ma belle.
These are words that go together well,
My Michelle.

Michelle, ma belle.
Sont des mots qui vont très bien ensemble,
Très bien ensemble.

I love you, I love you, I love you.
That's all I want to say.
Until I find a way
I will say the only words I know that
You'll understand.

Michelle, ma belle.
Sont des mots qui vont très bien ensemble,
Très bien ensemble.

I need to, I need to, I need to.
I need to make you see,
Oh, what you mean to me.
Until I do I'm hoping you will
Know what I mean.

I love you.

I want you, I want you, I want you.
I think you know by now
I'll get to you somehow.
Until I do I'm telling you so
You'll understand.

Michelle, ma belle.
Sont des mots qui vont très bien ensemble,
Très bien ensemble.

I will say the only words I know that
You'll understand, my Michelle.

Michelle - The Beatles

-chen-
[8.13pm]

Eng Siang's surprised video!

Greattt Weekend

Date : 13th August 2007
Time : 1.32PM
Listening to : Water churning
Where : Room - Malacca

Church was great. uncle Dexter gave the sermon about forgiveness. Then when he asked us to close our eyes and think of a person to forgive, suddenly, 3 person came to mind. I never thought i would hold grudges. It's not that i hate them or something. In fact the last person I thought of is a good friend of mine. Only that sometimes I feel like slapping him to wake him up or something. Not somebody that needs my forgiveness. Even if he does, he wouldn't ask. The 2nd person I thought of was a girl 2 years my junior. This person, even when people talked about her, I just feel like walking away. Plainly because she accused me of something i didn't do and say, just for the sake of ruining my sister and my relationship. She never asked for my forgiveness. In fact, she repeated her mistake. But if I ever see her again, I would say, "I forgive you" even though she wouldn't have a clue what I am talking about. Anyway, forgiving her is easy, forgetting her is hard. Uncle Dexter said we can't forget so I will let it be. Perhaps, if I meet her again, I won't feel this bad. The 1st person I thought of was way out of context. She didn't even do anything to me and I don't hate her and I don't have anything against her. I just feel weird bumping into her. Of course this one not about forgiveness lah but I don't know why I thought of her. Perhaps the way she dealt with my friend made me feel a little uneasy seeing her. Anyway, I will forgive.

Interesting things that are ordinary in church were :

#1 Aunty Bee Wan said I never failed to surprise her since I came back. She hardly could
recognize me with my ever changing look. -.-! First, I wore contact lenses and my hair was
long alreasy. Then the next week, my hair became short. Then yesterday, my hair was
shorter and RED.

#2 Uncle Kian boon said the banner was okay. I was happie. =)

#3 Auntie Jennifer gave me the chocolates Uncle David bought back. Heehee....

#4 Uncle Tony teased me bout my hair and we joked about it. It was painted on and he
attempted to throw me out the rain to see if it washes off. Hoho.... Our best friend suai ge
Tony. And I carried his youngest baby daughter Jasmine! So cuteeeeeeeee. And Michelle
carried carried Sarah away when I wanted to carry her. Apala.

#5 Ken, Joel and Aaron came to me and asked me very politely if I could make them paper
boats. O.o That ken and Joel polite to me? Those kids ar. Nevermind. I made them a few
and Uncle Dexter's son joined them. It was raining quite heavily and they wanted to sail
the boats in the drain. Ah Zheng made them gold fishes that float. Haha.


#6 Uncle Hoh and I ran in the rain like 2 small kiddos like that to our cars. So melawakkan.

Too bad I had to leave early on Sunday cos' I needed to help my mom finish a bungalow design. Stress betul both of us cos the appointment was at night and we had tonnes to do.

Eng Siang's Surprise farewell

Eng Siang was to leave on last Saturday. So, the church youths pakat-ed with his parents to surprise him.
So the plan was that we sneak into his house while they were out for dinner. We got the keys from Uncle Philip. It was super stressful cos' Ken Ken was so hyper. And the tension was quite high considering we had to open the 3 padlocks everytime one of us came. Auntie Tina became our ally by calling us when Eng Siang's parents called to tell us they were coming back. We decided to hide in his room. Lawak betul So many of us in his room and we saw a big clock there.


Ketawa until gila man. Ah Zheng, Adrian and Marcus became the spies.
When Eng Siang they all came back, we all ran into his room, off the lights and tried to keep as silent as possible. Quite impossible considering our youths all kept on joking and making one another laugh like gila. But when we heard Eng Siang coming, we all were rather silent. Then when he opened the door, we yelled, "SURPRISE!!!!!" and the expression on his face was.........

Priceless.


Lawak man. Caught it on video. Everytime we took a look at it, sure laugh one. ater only post the vid. Then we took a group picture and headed towards Subaidah's Corner in MITC. 6 cars man. So funny. Especially when the youths that came pulled out from the back alley of Eng Siang's place. We had to hide the cars ma. Like escort dunno what big shot like that when we went to MITC. The food was good. Very fun. I taught this Jess and Livia that stupid act cute moves by Zafri and Sathom. The fingers thing. Siao one. Ketawa like gila.

Anyway, it was really a great weekend. And on Tuesday, I think Tuesday, I went out with Yi Kwan and Andrew. That was a great night too. YK and I joked so much. Andrew became our victim. Hoho. We went for Tong Shui in Taman Asean. I still owe Shaun one Tong Shui btw. And then i dropped Andrew home. He gave each of us a gift. So nice right? Anyway, YiKwan loves her cow that quacks like a duck. Don't deny it Andrew. And I stayed at YK's place for awhile before going home. And Andrew gave me a snowman! Thanks! Give you my ufti later.


Yes, I named it Andrew. No dispute about this! Ok, gtg. See ya!

Oh if someone writes a song with a simple rhyme
Just a song where is feeling show
And if someone feels the same about the simple song
Oh sometimes you can hear them sing
Music gives you happiness or sadness
But it also, it also heals your soul

[Chorus:]
Let the music heal your soul
Let the music take control
Let the music give you the power to move any mountain

Oh if someone plays piano with some simple chords
So melodic and endearing too
And oh if someone plays guitar with the old piano
And maybe you can hear them sing
Music gives you happiness or sadness
But it also heals your soul

[Chorus]

Oh yeah
Let the music heal you soul
Let the music take control
Let the music heal you soul
Oh, oh yes

Let the music heal your soul
Let the musice take control

Let the music heal your soul - BSB

-Chen-
[3.19pm]

I don't want to deal with it

Date : 10th August 2007
Time : 1.00AM
Listening to : Rain...again.
Where : Home - Malacca

Nothing much to say. Wasn't allowed to say. And i seriously don't know if I am okay mentally since this is the 4th time already. And only once i actually felt so devastated. This time, I just said, "Don't tell me about it. I don't want to know". I am so not gonna deal with this man. I will be off to KL this Monday. When I come back, YOU BETTER FREAKIN BE ALIVE! I am so not considerate now. Not that you read my blog too. But I will keep to my promise. But you better be there man.

Turn away
If you could get me a drink
Of water cause my lips are chapped and faded
Call my Aunt Marie
Help her gather all my things
And bury me
In all my favorite colors,
My sisters and my brothers, still,
I will not kiss you, (O-Ooo)
Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you.

Now turn away,
Cause I'm awful just to see
Cause all my hair's abandoned all my body,
[Cancer lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

All my agony,
Know that I will never marry,
Baby, I'm just soggy from the chemo,
By counting down the days to go.
It just ain't livin'
And I just hope you know,

That if you say,
Good-bye today,
I'd ask you to be true,
Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you... (Whoa-oh-oh)

Cause the hardest part of this,
Is leaving you...

Cancer - MCR

This song is not meant for you. You will get past this. Then, we can go Penang bersama-sama after that. You better freakin hang on in that OR!

I will pray for you. I am so sorry i brushed everything off with jokes and stuff. I don't want to deal with it. I am so sorry.

*I will not entertain comments on this post except for GA if you have any*

-chen-
[1.20AM]

Red

Date : 9th August 2007
Time : 1.23AM
Listening to : The rain.....
Where : Room - Malacca

I guess red IS my favorite color when it comes to hair. Second time. Same colour. I went to the salon with my sister. She chose...somewhat copper-ish and i was looking at either purple-ish indigo to red. My dear "Calvin", you are so gonna get it from "Hobbes" when i meet you one of these days. You were rolling on the floor laughing i suppose. C'mon!!!! Red streaks are like tiger stripes ok? And Hobbes NEVER lose.Hoho...One day, i will sell my phone off. And get a phone without a camera. -.-! Anyway, i can't find a song to describe my mood today. I can't believe there's no RED song man. -.-! Takper. Let's settle down with August. Andrew, i haven't heard this song yet, but the lyrics, not bad ah? *Grinz*

august
i'll see you soon
under yellow moons
where i'll gather what's left of you

and august
i'm on your side
or did i speak too soon?
now we've crossed the great divide

someday we will meet beyond the stars
and it'll be away from here
someday we'll meet beyond the time and the bars
and it will be away from here

august
august of last year
before the leaves disappeared
told me you were not the one

august
something in your eyes
or was it that July
told me not to take it to heart

someday we will meet beyond the stars
and it will be away from here
someday we will meet beyond the limits of who we are
and it will be away from here

someday we will meet beyond the stars
and it'll be away from here
someday we'll meet beyond the land that you call miles away
away from here

August - Rilo Kiley

This song quite random. Will try to find out how it sounds like. Ok. Ta!

-Chen-
[1.44AM]

How do you love?

Date : 7th August 2007
Time : 7.46PM
Listening to : Grace Kelly - Mika
Where : Home - Malacca

Well, won't blog about yesterday and today yet. Tired... But Karen, here's the pictures.



Yeala Nilloc...you win la.... Look at that glutton face. I should have taken the pictures of the table too. -.-!

There once was love thrown into your room
But you never knew
A calendar of days just for you
But you never knew, never knew no
And the truth that you'll find will always be
The truth you hide

So how do you love, how do you love
When your angels can't sing, and your world is still
Lacking of me

There once were eyes that only saw you
But you never knew
A portrait of a flower in full bloom
But you never knew, never knew no
And the words that you fear will always be
The words you hear

This space where you've been living
Has gifts you've never given
That's the face you always show
Ask me for words of wisdom
Tell me of your condition
I don't know, I don't
I don't know

And the truth that you'll find will always be
The truth you hide

How do you love? - Collective Soul

I was telling Andrew, "I've found my song"... :)

Runaway Train never coming back

Date : 5th August 2007
Time : 8.25pm
Listening to : teng ni de ze ren (Responsibility to wait for you) - M+V Wong
Where : Room - Malacca

I watched The Simpson's Movie with Juliana and Yen Mei in MBO... I didn't know such place existed. Seriously. But MBO stands for Malaysian Box Office. The cinema was good. Comfortable. The movie, needless for me to say, was good. Many people already blogged about it so i will not. When we were about to leave the cinema, Yen called me and i turned. Man, i saw Yi Kwan. What a surprise. It was a ood surprise. And Juliana made Yen and I a couple of really delicious beef buritos.... dunnoe how to spell it. Then we went to Jaya Jusco to buy McD's ice cream sundae and met up with Ju's parents. On the way home, Shan called and asked if i wanna go see Mei Wah do her public speaking the next day. I agreed. So long tak nampak that dunky. Then Joon called, who was with Shan and Andrew and bising-ed me for not telling him that i was back in Malacca.

The next day, Joon came and picked me up at around 11+. Then we headed to Hoong's place. So long since i was there. Met my History teacher who happened to be Hoong's mom. Waited for Hoong to get ready and then we headed to pick Shan up. I didn't know he shifted. Apa la Shan! tak cakap langsung. Then we went to Ee Jin's place. I don't know him well but it was okay. We waited for the rest to come. Mel, Karen, Mei Wah, Collin and Weng Fatt arrived after a while. Did some catching up with Mel and Karen before we headed to MMU for the talk thing. Ngan joined us later with Khai and Lisa.

It was fun watching Dunky repeating her speech. Lawak betul. I cam memorize d... wait wait...

"Sigmond Freud once said, a person's name is a single context in human's mind which is blablabla..... For example, this young lady here. What is your name? Karen. Karen...sweet... How are you karen? Where are you from Karen? Nice meeting you Karen...."

Haha... See, did i do you proud dunky? Anyway, i actually benefited from her talk. I have problem remembering names. At one point, Joon, Karen and I went to the mini mart to buy snacks. Nobody wanna teman me eat Maggi mee cup until Collin came down. Haha... He also one yao Kwee one... Bising-ed that i went MIA for so long. Anyway, the whole thing ended at around 6pm. then we went to Saravana near YK's house to eat. The food there so cheap. I makan so much i thought i would burst. Collin said that he felt tergugat. I lost in the end...... TT..... Then Joon drove Shan and I to Senyum to meet Andrew and Thye Chuan. Chuan said he wanted to talk to me. He's the only friend i know that took design too. Anyway, it was great hanging out with Mei Wah and gang although it was weird at first.

Reached Senyum at around nine plus. Chuan, Andrew and Kim Kiat were there already. Playing pool. Talked to chuan about stuff . And i had a good laugh there with Andrew, Chuan and Shan.

Shan : Eh... you know why Andrew hit the ball so hard?

Me : Why?

Shan : Cos he said it stimulate him.

Me : What?!

Shan : Yea... ask him.

Me : Andrew! Listening to the sound stimulate you?

Andrew : WTH?

Haha... Doink mia shan... Keji betul. Another funny conversation was :

Me : I wanna go home.

Andrew : Sorry man, dragging you here.

Me : Nolah.

Andrew : So late d. Sammo you alone with 5 guys here.

Me : What 5 guys? 6 lah!

Andrew : What?

Me : Eh, Shan, there're 6 guys here right?

Shan : Got guys meh?

Me : -.-!!!

And Andrew dengan powernyer hit the cue ball off the table. Lawak betul. Around 12++ Kim Kiat drove me and Andrew home. We stopped by for a drink. Saw a rather lawak sign board. I laughed so much the whole day. I went to fetch my sister just now. Come back only so bising man. Haha...

But today was a terrible day. Hey dude, i know you don't like apologies. And i don't think i was wrong too but i am sorry i yelled ok? I won't go freaky on you and you better not also. See you on the 5th. Never wanted to screw things up.

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

CHORUS
Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

CHORUS

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

Runaway Train - Soul Asylum

-chen-
[8.57pm]

I cut my hair short

Date : 3rd August 2007
Time : 12.02AM
Listening to : Nobody loves me like you do - Anne Murray
Where : Room - malacca

Ah... Fasting ended. Gwarshhh.... Greatest experience ever. Before that, let me clarify... I was not fasting from food which is rather impossible at this point but i am sure i would do it one of these days. I was fasting from Zafri. Don't ask why la har... Zafri, i do keep to my words ok. *Grinz*
And shuddup about me losing.

Anyway, i went to the salon today. Sat down, and the salon spirit prompted me to cut my air. I flipped the mag and pointed at one and there goes my messed up hair. Goodbye college. Hello middle school. My bro gave me a cheesy grin when he saw me. Kamaaaaaaan! Great... now i will be his younger sister. -.-! Good, now people can call me Ah Boy. =)

Chris sms-ed me a couple of days ago. Angkor Wat is a must-see according to her. Haha. She and her fun-filled backpacking. I am rotting at home. I watched The Nanny everyday. Her voice is killing me. But equally farnie.

I wa on my way back from sending my bro to school when i heard on the radio that the 9 Korean hostages are alive. Praise God! Seriously, God is great.

My mom, bought a T20. A T20... Sony T20... SONY T20!!!! Waaaaah! But it's not mine.... Haha... Nevermind me. I don't need a camera till 2nd year something. But sony T20.... Wow... All i wanted was Sony T10..... Almost got it.... but i said, No. -.-!

Ok...lastly. My new hair. Middle school hair.

We steal to lose every colour
From the sky
Then crawl as a child
While the shadows burn our eyes

We know there's no longer shine
On this burned out rainbow

Lately it seems we've been chasing
What times resolved
Maybe something means nothing here
After all

Whispers are now screams
This conclusion never ends
My pride with your kiss
Even angels can't defend

We know we're running head on
Into our confusion

Still we hide safe behind these crumbled walls
Cause we know there's nothing here after all

After all - Collective soul

-chen-
[12.49am]

I hate chain letters

Date : 2nd August 2007
Time 12.42AM
Listening to : Nothing
Where : Room - Malacca

I hate chain letters. Can't people just snap out of it? I don't send chain letters and nothing happened to me and even if it does, that is like God's will okie? I just need to voice this out because it is irritating to open a mail that says, "Send this in dunnoe what hour and you will find your true love...yada yada yada..." "Send this in 2 minutes or so and so will die"........ Don't even come telling me i am heartless not sending it cos so and so will die. -.-! If i want some true love i don't have to rely on a letter okie? I will go find some pawang or something for love potion. -.-!
Sorry. I dunnoe why i'm so critical over this. It's just plain irritating.

Went out with Andrew and Yi Kwan on Monday. It was so fun. Minus the part where Andrew and i got lost finding Yi Kwan's house. I know where her house is ok...she's my best friend but i dunnoe why my brain went dead. I went mad. But like Andrew said, quality time. Haha... It was a hilarious moment. And we went to Amigo. The last time i was there, it was like 2004 or 2005 i can't remember. We had a great time chatting. To be honest, i dunnoe why i was defending him so much. So Andrew said something like, "I sakit hati see him treating you like this"... It was nothing la GA. It doesn't matter. It wasn't even something serious. And YiKwan went, "I am offended..." Why? I don't. But all in all... we had a great time. I love you guys. Penang trip better work yea...

I am bored. Not that i think Malacca is boring. It's just that TOA's workload are so hectic and when i came back, suddenly nothing to do. Two very different extremes. Irene agreed with me in this. Probably will be having lunch with her and Haitham, right after i meet Pinky for the Merdeka thing.

Hwei asked me to speak for Youth Meeting on August 25th i think. I'll try not to mess things up. Anyway, i really pray the Korean hostages will be alright.

When I made up my mind
And my heart along with that
To live not for myself
But yet for god
Somebody said
Do you know what you are getting yourself into?

When I finally ironed out
All of my priorities
And asked God to remove the doubt
That makes me unsure of these
Things I ask myself
I ask myself
Do you know what you are getting yourself into?

Im getting into you
Because you got to me
In a way words cant describe
Im getting into you
Because Ive got to be
Youre essential to survive
Im going to love you with my life

When he looked at me and said
I kind of view you as a son
And for a second our eyes met
And I met that with a question
Do you know what you are getting yourself into?

Im getting into you
Because you got to me
In a way words cant describe
Im getting into you
Because Ive got to be
Youre essential to survive
Im going to love you with my life

Ive been a liar and Ill never amount to
The kind of person you deserve to worship you
You say you will not dwell on what I did but rather what I do you say
I love you and thats what you are getting yourself into

Im getting into you (getting into you)
Because you got to me (because you got to me)
In a way words cant describe
Im getting into you (getting into you)
Because Ive got to be (because Ive got to be)
Youre essential to survive
Im going to love you with my life

Im getting into you (getting into you)
Because you got to me (because you got to me)
In a way words cant describe
Im getting into you (getting into you)
Because Ive got to be (because Ive got to be)
Youre essential to survive
Im going to love you with my life

You said I love you and thats what youre getting into

Relient K - Getting into you