I am not the other girl.

As in 11.20PM now... I am directing this to you.

Do not refer to me as the other girl. As much as I really love you as a friend, don't call me that. Get a proper study before implying that on me. And I have nothing against you. I just want to let you know, I really don't fancy you saying that. And I guess you've never trusted me to be over it huh?

-chen-
[11.23PM]

***Edit***

I don't know what is wrong today. Why should I get from 2 parties I wonder.

You just have to test me uh? Don't come and tell me you are not. Try to recall back earlier this year when I said I have nothing to say and you told me you are going to go for a smoke for awhile. I said go ahead and you went, "wth?? You just gonna let me?" What do you want me to say? Don't do it? I've stated for so many times I really don't fancy my friend taking up smoking. Wasn't that enough? You want me to beg you so you won't start? You want me to tell you not to cos' your have asthma??? You want to know if I care?!?! I bet you can't remember when I said don't laugh anymore cos' you could hardly breath. I bet you can't remember when you crossed the road without looking and made me feel like you might be hit. I bet you can't remember I asked if you are safely home after your flight. I bet you don't remember. And now you have to come up with a joke telling me you got into a fight and ended up in the hospital? I was just asking an innocent question. If you are home or not.

No, seriously tell me. Did I make such a bad, terrible, unreliable friend that you don't trust me to care without telling you verbally? Don't tell me I am too sensitive. NO. You are INSENSITIVE.

Do you even care if one day I really don't care anymore? I bet you don't care. I will not hurt you anyway. Since I am such a terribly unreliable friend.

-chen-
[1.36AM]

I am really sorry. But I am just so annoyed and upset with both of you right now. Don't bring this up. Then I will be fine.

Run

Date : 30th March 2008
Time : 10.09PM
Where : MC - Room
Listening to : Run - Snow Patrol

Aih...Left around 2 weeks before the break comes... Bad and good in a way... Anyway, I've been listening to Run by Snow Patrol lately.. Great song. But I love the acoustic cover by this guy also.


By Snow Patrol


By a guy that I dunnoe but great cover.

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Anyway...back to my work I guess...

-chen-
[8.11PM]

I sense a storm coming up. And I may be the one who stirred it up. What a mistake....

What a mistake....

Come what may

Date : 28th March 2008
Time : 1.37PM
Where : MC - Room
Listening to : Come What may - Moulin Rouge

Finally watched Moulin Rouge a few days back. I know I know..lambat kan... But it's a great show with great art direction and scene transition. Touching. But hate the way she died in the end. Cliche. =.=! But sad in a way. I feel for Ewan.



I like how they did a new rendition for some of the songs in this movie.

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
I want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day i'm loving you more than this
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I love you until the end of time

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you
And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather
And stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

-chen-
[1.40PM]

I am 1% smarter

Date : 28th march 2008
Time : 1.25AM
Listening to : Nothing
Where : MC - Room

I've been reading. Reading back my 8th journal.

Date: 30th July 2005
Then I was rather stress also. When I thought about my math, I really wanna die you know. I even thought of dropping out of school.

I was in Form 6 then. And to think math could make me this stressful even though I really like math. And now, math is nothing compared to Action Script 3. Somehow I feel 1% smarter everytime I got a script right. (Quoted from Chris) Like just now, I figured out why my script didn't work. It's the doink "maximum character" in the inputTxtMC. DOTS... Bodoh. 2 hours for that stupid silly discovery. That's why I feel 1% smarter. Now I need to figure out why my score is not accumulating in the script.

Dear Lord...=.=!

Think AS3.0 gonna haunt me like math. Love it but can't do it. Menangis aku. Sammo the diamond thingy really... Akan aku menjajahinya satu hari nanti. Aku tau BM aku salah..But I forgot the word for "conquer...So menjajah. HHEHEHEHEHE.

Aku gila semacam. Oooooh... And thank God for Design method class. Idea was approved.

kk... I have to figure out the score thing liao. Somehow things look hopeful after the 1% smarter incident.

-chen-
[1.34AM]

Patience

Date : 27th March 2008
Time : 2.00AM
Listening to : One More Night
Where : MC - Room

Well, patience didn't kick in for some time now. Tend to just ignore a lot of things being said to me. If I feel like not replying I will just keep quiet and not say a thing. Sorry man Sel. Today was just one heck of a tiring day so when you joked and stuff I just couldn't communicate back. I guess some things need to be learned again and again until I finally get the grasp of it. And patience is something that I need to deal with, not to mention faith. Well I guess most of the time, (apparently) I appeared to be optimistic. But faith is not equal to optimism. But thanks for the prayers and all. Been working on the book of Ezekiel again after suggesting to Yen on the book of Daniels. This time, I am going to finish it. You know, it's been truly refreshing to read again. The Bible I mean.

Lately. religion had been quite a topic. For instance today, we had a discussion of Christianity, Islam and also Buddhism. No Hinduism. We don't have any Hindus around. And it was quite a discussion. And again, as usual, I made the point that the major difference between Islam and Christianity is the status that we believe Jesus is in. And again, Jesus is worth believing in for as God, He came down to die for my sins. So yeah, and hence Passion of Christ topic when Zheng and I went home. It just came out of nowhere and again, Christianity came up. So I shared a lil' bit more on that.

And I think things took a good turn when I tried to break away from the thoughts of me being beyond help and all. And though prayers had been for the same things over and over again, I'm allowing God to speak to me through His word. Usually it was always me that talks and not allowing any room for His word to come through. I admit I still feel abit stagnant right here but the clog is clearing up. And yea, again, patience should kick in soon or else I prob will feel heat up my spine again.

I wouldn't say it was because of stress la ok. Just that I've been giving in to my cranky mood and all. And now I am having idea block. Guess I better sleep it off for a while. And thanks, really, people for praying. Very much needed. On my part, I will keep working on it.

Dunnoe why. I sounded like someone else right now. Weeeirdddd....

Btw...regarding my previous post, it was so early in the morning and I get cranky. But I still stand by what I said. I don't like that word.

-chen-
[2.14AM]

The F word really makes me wanna slap someone.

Date : 25th march 2008
Time : 2.33AM
Where : MC-Room
Listening to : I really can't help it...It's somebody's status

I just have to blog about this. I can't stand it running in my head for so long. I mean yeala, it's her status she can put whatever she wants but =.0... Ugh...I am so sick of it. So over-saturated with the F word and sorry to say..I hate it so much. It's like 4 in a sentence and I think I'm going to faint everytime I open MSN main window.

I had a crazy thought of blocking her. =.=! I am definitely crazy liao. Just so I don't have to see lest I think badly of someone. Ugh~! If you happen to read this, it's not your problem I guess. Just me. T.T I am so miserable right now. I wish I could be as selfish as I can and force you to take that down but obviously, I am mad. So, ignore me. I just want to rant about it. Dang... I really think that is pretty crude.

I really... cannot tahan. I am so serious about freedom of speech. But now I am really wondering about the freedom of sight. =.=! And please, don't come telling me (anyone at all) that everybody is entitled to put whatever they want. COS THIS IS MY BLOG AND I WANT TO RANT ABOUT IT!

-chen-
[emoe queen right]
[2.39AM]

Remembering Easter and Auntie Kim Neo

Date : 23 March 2008
Time : 11.07PM
Listening to : Ju Hua Tai(piano) - Jay Chao
Where : MC - Room

It's Easter. Today we celebrate Jesus' resurrection. As often as I always try to remind myself how much Jesus sacrificed for us humans... I always forget to remind myself that the most important thing in our Christian faith is Jesus' resurrection.

But if it is preached that Christ has been raised from the dead, how can some of you say there is no resurrection of the dead? If there is no resurrection of the dead, then not even Christ has been raised. And if Christ has not been raised, our preaching is useless and so is your faith.
1 Cor 15:12-14

Today, I went to church, expected things to be as usual. I got news from Ju yesterday evening that Auntie Kim Neo has already passed away. I was shocked and stunned for a sec. But honestly, yesterday, I was so busy with programming that I let it slide after a while. Then I forgot about it. Then I came back home and then Sathom sms-ed me. Then I remembered Auntie Kim Neo again when he asked how was I doing. Yet, I was too tired. I fell asleep.

Then in church, when I told Rebecca about it, then it hit me. I won't see her again. Then I found it so hard to contain my tears. During worship, I felt so overwhelmed... It's true that I wasn't exactly close to her. But I've had spent some time with her while we were in church last time. I don't exactly know how to handle death well. I guess it helps that I don't see her often. I won't miss her. But today, around 2000 years ago, Jesus rose from death. And so will Auntie Kim Neo.
It was written in the Bible... those who's passed on has fallen asleep, that's all. And I was comforted, remembering the Lord who conquered death.

On Friday, Jesus was flogged and crucified. Many lose hope. His disciples were watching from a distance. But it was only Friday. Sunday was coming. He conquered death. He gave hope. He cleansed us from our sins. As shared by Uncle Kam Loong, although there may be many "Fridays" in our lives, there's always "Sunday" that is coming. Don't lose hope.

Today, i was tempted to go home early. But decided to stay on for children's ministry. I am glad I did. The children were so adorable. And their faith and enthusiasm for Jesus are to be applauded. No wonder Jesus said:

I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.
Matthew 10:15

Anyway... I think in a way, I will rejoice for I now Auntie Kim Neo will no longer suffer with cancer anymore. But she will be dearly missed by all. She was, after all, a lovely person.


In the next entry, I will blog about class. For now... I just want to appreciate how good God has been to me. And to remember Auntie Kim Neo.

-chen-
[11.35PM]

Action Script 3.0...

Date : 21 March 2008
Time : 9.44PM
Listening to : Weird sound from upstairs
Where : MC-Room

AAAAARGHHH~! Action script. TT... You know what is so weird about this whole thing? It's that it's so fun too learn and all but I just hate it when it comes to my project2. Aih... Entah ler... Believe me, it's fun to script. But when it comes to my project.... T.T <--Like that lor.

var scripting:Boolean=true;

if(scripting!=true){
trace("Yeh!Nice to learn!);
}else{
trace("Headache...Wanna die...);
}

Adoih... Sedih... SO much to do yet so little time. Maybe I should be more organized you know. Anyway, I just found out that the ice skating ring in Sunway is under renovation. The ice melted liao. So...ugly.
And yea, ate at KimGary today. Wahpiang. So noisy. Even MCD also not so noisy. I mean come on man. Malacca kopitiam also not so noisy. So uncomfy eating there and besides, the food also tak sedap. that's my 2nd try there. the first was with Joon. He belanja-ed But...aih..crappy food lah. Not as good as expected. Maybe just Sunway. I dunnoe...

Other than that, today had been fun. Not so yesterday though. I scripted for so long and I even stayed away from The Last Canopy lor! In total I tried scripting only one section and it took me 6 hours or so. And just to find out it was so wrong. Aih..Better now then never right. But today was really fun I must say. Scripting for the sound thingy was cool. Tanyus and I were like blur a bit today. Whatever was told to us by Hazmer was gone in within seconds after he left. Aduh... And so lawak in class today. laughed until stomach ached. I should have around 6 packs by now with all those crazy stuff. =.=!

Kla...Time for WebDesign assignment. Sometimes really bengang with my work man. Seriously. Bengang. Sammo tomorrow got replacement class so I cannot... note... I cannot balik Melaka with my bro and parents. Aih..takper la.

And Adrian... YOU SPAMMER! SLAPZ~!


Sorry. No time to photoshop properly. If not u sure look like masuk tong for real one. HAHAHAHA!!!! With love, from ur sis.

-chen-
[10.13PM]

Raining pretty heavily now...

Date : 20th March 2008
Time : 5.33PM
Listening to : Rain & Thunder
Where : MC - Room

Aih... It's raining so heavily now. Lately, Kl's weather had been a bit mad. Too hot and the suddenly will be super heavy rain with loud thunder and bright lightnings. Sigh...

Anyway, I just got back from Hazmer's tuition class for flash. Okla..Learned new things today. Apart from that, I think life had been quiet . Maybe not so . Yesterday a friend talked to me about her relationship with her boyfriend. Hmmm... I dunnoe. I was quite shocked to actually find out that I actually know him well enough to predict what he feels and what he will say. And this was the first time I was that honest with my friend about what I think despite knowing that my words may hurt her. Usually I will just hold back. But I guess she needed to hear from me. Anyway, hopefully they will be okay by now.

Aih...Bro is in Genting, Zheng is in Putrajaya. All alone now at home. But biasa la. Even if they are home now also we will be in our own room and do work, play game, chat and whatsoever. I wished I will have more time to read all those books that I just bought. I've browsed through but really... I don't have time to digest. Books like Communication Arts(Ad Annual 48), The Ultimate Graphic Element Collection and many of my IDN mags ad also Practical Web Design Mags. Most of my books are very image based but still...Aih..No time to digest what I see. And for the mags. There are so many things to read and learn from but I don't have time. Hmm... I guess since it's raining pretty hard and lightning flashing so often, I think it's best to leave the lappie alone for now and read. Flash will have to wait then.

k then... That's all for now I guess. And I prob will be spending Easter in BSGC this year. I guess recovery from backsliding is in progress. Been doing good lately. And I think it will work out just fine.

Haih... I miss Bim and Bo too. So, Bo, you are not the only one. :)


-chen-
[5.45PM]

#4 wei!!!

Date : 19th March 2008
Time : 10.50PM
Listening to : Nothing
Where : MC-Room

It's all tanyus' fault. Now wahyu and I got addicted. But I beat hist score. WAHAHAAHAH! And I rank no.4 lae~! Haha... =.=! I shud start on flash now. Before that...Dengan bangganya... My nameabove Wahyu. HAHAAHAHA! Next time la Wahyu.

Gamers...Don't start playing. I am serious. But... Nah... here. The Last Canopy.

Spiritual Warfare

Date : 18th March 208
Time : 9.58PM
Listening to : Some songs played very loud by neighbors... =.=!
Where : MC - room

I have been in a spiritual dump lately. Took a turn for the worse yesterday. 2 really good friends talked to me. Quite a roller coaster ride actually. Then Quiet Time today, God spoke.

Luke 22:31,32
Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you turned back, strengthened your brothers.

I know it's for Simon but this verse jumped out from the passage. Like what Uncle Kevin always said to us youth... a verse, when needed, will jump up from the many passages. That's when God speaks. And the last part, I really felt it. When you turned back, strengthened your brothers. Been reading Adrian's blog after Ye asked me too. I guess I just have to take it as a lesson. And I really don't want to be like this anymore cos' I am so sick of it. When you are so spiritually stagnant, you feel that the whole world stops. In my case, it does ok. And I don't like it. I know what Ju said was right. No one said it's easy anyway. And I really should stop having that mindset:"Takperla...balik Melaka rehab..." Cos if I want to get back up, I really should start now. Not going to blame the situation here. Not going to blame anyone. It's me. And everytime I read the part where Peter denied Jesus 3 times, it hit me pretty hard when the Bible says, The Lord turned and looked straight at Peter. I really will not be able to phantom how much sadness could possibly be seen in Jesus' eyes.

That's why I want to get back up and be a strong Christian again.

And in support for my flash lecturer who took away my Morrocco's dream...=.=! Please check out the game that he scripted and supposrt him for the competition!

AHBONK!

-chen-
[10.47PM]

On DMSJ, Birthday and Class

Date : 14th March 2008
Time : 11.04PM
Listening to : Water dripping
Where : MC-Room

Ok...This is going to be a long post. But no worries... As you guys can see...Unlike last year, my blog will be with pictures this time. Hehe. Will update about my 22nd birthday, DMSJ and my class.
DMSJ Quiz
DMSJ stands for Daya, Malacca, Shah Alam and Johor. Every year around March or so, these 4 churches will participate in a Bible Quiz. This year it was on the book of Judges. It was the weekend that clashed with our Election but no worries. Everything turned out good despite the rain. The KL-ians and MMU graduates came back too such as Geng Yi, Juliana, Stephen, CK, Gary and me. Hehe. Saturday was the "social" day. This was the first one I attended. It was fun. Got to know several people. And glad to see many other familiar faces too. But the games were tiring man. I really dreaded the Caterpillar walk. I actually had bruised ankles for 4 days or so... More that that actually but takper la. And at night, we had even much more fun stuff. Each church came up with a performance. But I must give the credit for the rendition of "Hey There Delilah" by James from SAGC. Superb man. Lawak lagi tu. And on Sunday was the real quiz. mangkuk betul. I didn't know the Mangkuk disease was so severe in MGC. Haha... Last 2 years we were infected with the World Cup chant. View the post here. This year, we went for the Mangkuk-ness. But alas... As gaya as always, MGC kalah. But no sweat. Relax jer. Too bad I didn't watch the prize giving part. I was busy doing my Typography in the prayer room. CAN you believe that? Assignments in church. T.T! But all in all it was such a great time spent during DMSJ. Getting to know peopla and stuff. I am not very good at remembering names. Sorry yea. I could only remember Kelly, Sarah, James (cos' I asked for his name...Hey There Delilah was good), Thomas, Adrian, Jun Yee, Darren (Cos' lawan sell T-shirts 2x already) and...okay..seriously...I forgot the photographer's name. AGAIN! Sorry! But anyway... I am glad I went back. It's really a great effort put in by everyone. And again, good job people.

Mangkuk-ness~!

Contestants! Livia, Jessica and Adrian~!

Apa ini Yik How~!

Part of the audience...

Ah hwei and Shaun...
The kids!

SAGC dudes

MGC dudettes

MGC dudes

Our rarely filled up church~!

22nd Birthday
Now with DMSJ done, I want to rant about my feelings of turning 22. Honestly... I was quite sad. Aku dah TUA! Hahah... Okla..Takla sangat but suddenly I felt too grown up. Nevermind that. Anyway, birthday celebration started quite early. I was surprised that my classmates planned to bring me to Sunway Italianese to celebrate my birthday on Thursday. Tanyus was to leave for Indonesia that afternoon so they celebrated the birthday a few days earlier. First we went pool. Then after that we went for lunch at The Italianese. Those present were Chris, Tanyus, Selvia, Diana, Wahyu, Fadzil and Kelvin. It was such a lovely day. And we ate till we were so full. And took a lot of silly pictures especially me and Tanyus... mimicking Rafiki's face. Lol. Thanx a bunch you guys! And yea... My first gift came from Rin. Thanks a bunch altough you think I am a Germ. =.=! And so doesn't look like me!

Gift from Rin... I named this dude Toothy~! Hung on my bag now!

This is basically my whole class...

Tanyus trademark face...

My bread cake...

Next was spent with my family. No big deal but good none the less. It was after the Election's result. And a few minutes before the clock struck 12... We went...... SATAY CELUP! Not in Capitol... not in Ong Kim Wee... But malim Jaya... Hahaa... Tak sedap la..But I am glad my dad decided to bring us out. Cos we get to spend time together! And anyway... I can't go far cos I haven't finished my Figures yet! T.T!

The next morning, mom gave me angpao before I balik ke KL to suffer.


Heehee. Ah Joon came and fetch me, my bro and Juliana. Ju and I talked like super lama and super lawak also. Then when I reached home in Kl, I did some assignments for Tuesday and then went off to school. After class I went to Faith Station (Something like CF) and surprise surprise! They bought a small cup desert for me and sang Happie Birthday song. Thanks a bunch!

Faith Station! Thx!

And Thanks Kelvin for remembering. After that supposed to go out dinner with Zaf, Zheng and Sathom. Sathom's birthday was one day before mine. So we were supposed to just go out for dinner la. Mana tau something bad happened which was the electricity la. i don't want to elaborate lah. Anyway... dinner was canceled. But Sathom and I decided to just go for dinner la. We went McD. Ketawa all the way about roaches and stuff. Ngok betul. And I bought him a shirt that says "To LAH or not to LAH!" since he always use the word LAH dunnoe since when. =.=!


And he gave me this lil' musical mechanism thingy that played by the tune "Jesus Loves Me". I would say it's a great gift.


Thanks Orang Utan! And that's basically how the real day ended. Oh..and Andrew texted me and wished me too and asked me to check a YouTube video. Almost forgot but luckily he posted on the chatbox. And DUDE! Damn darn sweet giler. Thanks yea!



On Tuesday after class, Zheng and Zafri planned to have dinner with us but like tak jadi cos' Sathom couldn't make it. But dunnoe how come Danny and I ended up in front of that dude's house. Nevermind. Anyway, we had a brief "dinner" of pizzas and Zafri's proud "Limau Ais" drinks in Sathom's place. We met his new housemate too. Mondey? I dunnoe how to spell. Anyway, we got crowned~! Btw, thx for taking us in dude and also Zheng and Zaf, thx so much for this effort. And Danny, thx for coming!

Crowned!

I think that's basically sum up my 22nd birthday. Thanks to all who took the time to text me and your calls too.

Class
I have a gila class... In fact my class is so gila that we have the whole Lion King casts in it. And my class is so small. Minus those who decided to drop, we are left with only 6 surviving ones.
Tanyus - The famous Rafiki
Selvia - Timon
Wahyu - Simba (Obviously, since he's the onli guy)
Chris - Scar
Diana - Nala ( i dunnoe why)
Me - Pumbaa...
And life had been so hectic. AND I LOST MY PENDRIVE!!! (Do the penguin dance) Sedihnyer aku tak terhingga!!! Kla..Let the pictures do the talking.

Hoho...Dee... Itula... Kan dah cakap I will post?

Design Method 2 class~!

Anyway, I went to watch Ah Long Pte.Ltd with nesia, Tanyus and Selvia. lawak giler. laughed until cannot breath. Betul-betul lawak I tell you. Go and watch. I needed an oxygen mask. Really laughed until cannot brewath. Mark Lee is superb la. fantastic actor. And KK was in it! With Daniel Tan! *Drool*

Kla kla..dowan talk d... That's all la I guess. Tak hutang lagi kan??

Stalking?!?!?!?!?!

Date : 14th March 2008
Time : 9.01AM
Listening to : Fall in Love - Olivia
Where: Room

Bangang... I stalk now?! Noooooooooooooooooo! (do the penguin dance)

It's all Rin's fault! T.T! Yes you germy hands~!

-chen-
[9.02AM]

Lomo Lust

Date : 13th March 2008
Time : 8.40AM
Listening to : Antara Anyer dan Jakarta - Sheila Majid
Where : MC - Room

Good Morning! Today is a beautiful day! I have so many things to update about namely DMSJ and my birthday. HOHOHO! But all should be put aside first for my newest addiction.






Lomo~! You know how tempted am I now to go and buy one lomo camera right now? I tell you super tempted lor! Dongoi mia mangkuk mia bongok giler! Since doing that research for design method... I wanted a lomo like... like alot lah. T.T! I want a lomo... See how beautiful the pictures are man. And this is one fine example of a mistake that contributed to the design world. Perfect mistake. *Grinz*

Oh...will try to update on the other stuff later. Ta!

-chen-
[8.48AM]

Happie~!

Date : 9th March 2008
Time : 12.14AM
Listening to : Nothing
Where : Room -Malacca


I have such a great day meeting the peeps from the different churches. And a great time spent with MGC-ians. And crazy lawak time there with them at the mamak. Great day...

*Grinz*

Will update soon about birthday lunch with friends and about DMSJ.

MGC-ians. Too bad I am not inside!!!

Group members.

Till then! Ta!

-chen-
[12.57AM]

What I really wanna do...

Date : 6th March 2008
Time : 9.59AM
Listening to : Nothing
Where : Bro's room

Hmmm... Mom and dad came to visit out of a sudden yesterday. They just left. Anyway, before I start any ramblings here, I would like to thank Rin for her early birthday gift for me. And btw rin..so doesn't look like me you germy little woman!

And yea...back to what I was going to blog about... Actually before Ifell asleep yesterday, I had something that I wanted to blog about but I was to lazy to switch on my laptop again. -.-! Now I forgot what it was. But anywho (so Yen)... I told my mom I will come back and work with her. And I have the intention (since like so many years ago) to venture into having my own range of fabric and wallpaper design. So me right? HAHAHAAHA! Ahem...anyway... I know I am in Multimedia line and if people were to ask me what is this line all about, I probably will just answer them...website design. Blah! Obviously it's more than just that. As the name already suggested... multimedia...banyak banyak media... So anything pun boleh la. But I think venturing into Interior Design like I've always wanted to is another challenge la though many told me, "Your mom ID wat! Senang aper..." Tak senang ok? ID is not just about placing furniture. It's about planning and getting things accurate and at the same time must serve it's purpose/function together with aesthetic beauty ok? You can't ctrl+z to undo things that went wrong. Yea...That's what I will say about ID. But when I told that to my mom...I mean about what i really want to do..she sadi..."Where got like that one?" And I went dot dot dot...Nolah... I actually went..."Got lah.... I want to do that" and then the food came d. Takper la... I know that's what I really wanna do...besides graphic design.

Why la I talk about things like that??? Hahaha... But I can assure you that what I wanted to blog last nite was even weirder than just this. LOL. Oh..and I am so in love with Steohan sagmeister's accent. *drool* Check my other blog to find out why.

It's how you decide to treat them...

Date : 5th March 2008
Time : 2.17AM
Listening to : Nothing
Where : MC - Room

What would you do?....you make the choice. Don't look for a punch line, there isn't one. Read it anyway. My question is: Would you have made the same choice?

At a fundraising dinner for a school that serves learning-disabled children, the father of one of the students delivered a speech that would never be forgotten by all who attended. After extolling the school and its dedicated staff, he offered a question: 'When not interfered with by outside influences, everything nature does is done with perfection. Yet my son, Shay, cannot learn things as other children do. He cannot understand things as other children do. Where is the natural order of things in my son?'

The audience was stilled by the query.

The father continued. 'I believe, that when a child like Shay, physically and mentally handicapped comes into the world, an opportunity to realize true human nature presents itself, and it comes in the way other people treat that child.'


Then he told the following story:

Shay and his father had walked past a park where some boys Shay knew were playing baseball. Shay asked, 'Do you think they'll let me play?' Shay's father knew that most of the boys would not want someone like Shay on their team, but the father also understood that if his son were allowed to play, it would give him a much-needed sense of belonging and some confidence to be accepted by others in spite of his handicaps.

Shay's father approached one of the boys on the field and asked (not expecting much) if Shay could play. The boy looked around for guidance and said, 'We're losing by six runs and the game is in the eighth inning. I guess he can be on our team and we'll try to put him in to bat in the ninth inning.'

Shay struggled over to the team's bench and, with a broad smile, put on a team shirt. His Father watched with a small tear in his eye and warmth in his heart. The boys saw the father's joy at his son being accepted. In the bottom of the eighth inning, Shay's team scored a few runs but was still behind by three. In the top of the ninth inning, Shay put on a glove and played in the right field. Even though no hits came his way, he was obviously ecstatic just to be in the game and on the field, grinning from ear to ear as his father waved to him from the stands. In the bottom of the ninth inning, Shay's team scored again. Now, with two outs and the bases loaded, the potential winning run was on base and Shay was scheduled to be next at bat.

At this juncture, do they let Shay bat and give away their chance to win the game? Surprisingly, Shay was given the bat. Everyone knew that a hit was all but impossible because Shay didn't even know how to hold the bat properly, much less connect with the ball.

However, as Shay stepped up to the plate, the pitcher, recognizing that the other team was putting winning aside for this moment in Shay's life, moved in a few steps to lob the ball in softly so Shay could at least make contact. The first pitch came and Shay swung clumsily and missed. The pitcher again took a few steps forward to toss the ball softly towards Shay. As the pitch came in, Shay swung at the ball and hit a slow ground ball right back to the pitcher.

The game would now be over. The pitcher picked up the soft grounder and could have easily thrown the ball to the first baseman. Shay would have been out and that would have been the end of the game.

Instead, the pitcher threw the ball right over the first baseman's head, out of reach of all team mates. Everyone from the stands and both teams started yelling, 'Shay, run to first! Run to first!' Never in his life had Shay ever run that far, but he made it to first base. He scampered down the baseline, wide-eyed and startled.

Everyone yelled, 'Run to second, run to second!' Catching his breath, Shay awkwardly ran towards second, gleaming and struggling to make it to the base. By the time Shay rounded towards second base, the right fielder had the ball ... the smallest guy on their team who now had his first chance to be the hero for his team. He could have thrown the ball to the second-baseman for the tag, but he understood the pitcher's intentions so he, too, intentionally threw the ball high and far over the third-baseman's head. Shay ran toward third base deliriously as the runners ahead of him circled the bases toward home.

All were screaming, 'Shay, Shay, Shay, all the Way Shay'

Shay reached third base because the opposing shortstop ran to help him by turning him in the direction of third base, and shouted, 'Run to third! Shay, run to third!'


As Shay rounded third, the boys from both teams, and the spectators, were on their feet screaming, 'Shay, run home! Run home!' Shay ran to home, stepped on the plate, and was cheered as the hero who hit the grand slam and won the game for his team.

'That day', said the father softly with tears now rolling down his face, 'the boys from both teams helped bring a piece of true love and humanity into this world'.

Shay didn't make it to another summer. He died that winter, having never forgotten being the hero and making his father so happy, and coming home and seeing his Mother tearfully embrace her little hero of the day!

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